Salus Credentium

God & The Universe

2010-11-03T00:50:00.004-04:00

Ever wondered what was God's purpose for creating such a Gigantic Universe in Microscopic detail?

Well I have wondered about that.

(disclaimer: thought not based on the teachings of faith and Science, but only on the evidence of such works as experienced throughout the human history within those spheres)

Since everything god creates has a purpose, and he is a god of life not death, What if god willed, in the beginning, that man rule over all of creation (as he said in Genesis) and was supposed to dwell not only on Earth but throughout the Universe. But when man sinned and he cursed all of creation and man, he made it no longer possible/accessible that man inhabit any plant because he made it uninhabitable.

So when all of creation becomes new again as promised after Christ Jesus' second coming, (1) would Universal Planets be made habitable and accessible to mankind? (2) would God place man on these "New Earths" to conquer and subdue it.

Because, I mean to say, When mankind experiences the resurrection (Second Birth/Genesis) and our bodies become rejoined to our souls and spiritualized like Adam and Eve in the state of Original Innocence again or like Jesus at the Transfiguration; equipped with the Spiritual-Human abilities as some Saints had experienced during their lifetime (teleportation, bi-location etc.), then, is it possible that God, in his first plan before sin entered the world, had this as his first intention, hence the reason for such a Gigantic and Abundant Universe?

If not, then for what use would he create SO MUCH GALAXIES etc.? What's the whole point of it? Is this all just plain Vanity? I refuse to believe that since EVERYTHING CREATED is well crafted and pieced together to the atom!

I recall an incident between Jesus and St. Faustina which surprised me when I first read it 7 years ago. He appeared to her one day and told her that he would create a whole world, more beautiful than this one just for her if she wanted him to, just because he loved her.

I thought about that. You think about it.

I think this is worth thinking about since I've never hear any saint, far less a scientist, discuss life after the Resurrection and Judgement for Humanity.

The Green Search Engine

2010-10-16T14:17:00.002-04:00

Using StumbleUpon, I discovered a search engine that invest in saving rainforest with revenue earned from searches! I have decided to switch, and I encourage you to do the same. Ecosia Search Engine

Overcoming

2010-09-12T02:43:00.002-04:00

It's hard living in fear of the future. That's what I've been doing for the past 3 years with increasing intensity. Most times I feel as if I'm at the point where life says "ha! I've beaten you." And this coming for a guy that's 23. Sigh. The bright side of this is the fact that there's probably 1 billion people I'm better off than, and, i should stop complaining and do something worthwhile with my life. Poverty is not an option when there's so much opportunities for self growth and advancement. The main disappointment and obstacle I'd say would be our poor choices and indisciplined behaviour. I mean, it's really the small things that matter, like saying thank you, getting up early, remembering a birthday, a genuine smile. And though I and many people know that consciously, well fail at even that. Such a simple thing to do that seems undo-able.

The key I think is to be motivated, disciplined and prayerful. And that at times that is a task in itself. But, we can't avoid working out our own salvation/happiness, whatever you call it without doing some strenuous work either in the interior or exterior man.

Peace.

The Beginning of Sorrows - Mercy gives way to Divine Justice

2008-11-06T17:26:00.000-04:00

"I am the light of the world. Anyone who follows me will not walk in darkness" says the Lord Jesus.

God speaks to us even in our time. We who follow Jesus know his voice. If you're a practicing catholic, you should know this as a fact for there are many examples of saints and their prophecies, historical events, which prove this fact as truth. Valentina-Papagna is one of these persons whom god chose to be the eyes of the church. She is a CHURCH APPROVED visionary from Australia and she has posted online, the latest messages she has received from heaven. She is 100% Credible and Catholic, and I have been reading, listening, living, and scrutinizing her messages and the requests she have received from Heaven since 2003. Trust me when I say she is for real. There are few things i would put my life on, and this woman's credibility is one of them.

Some of the messages she received has already come to past for example the 2004 Tsunami. This message, the latest was quite disturbing for me, so i post it in order to spread the message, to make people aware of god's will for us in our present time, and for people to be prepared; to repent, to convert their hearts and to rejoice for Jesus is coming soon. The beginning of sorrows has begun. Wicked mankind will now suffer and do penance for abandoning the ways of god and his church for his own good. God's kingdom is coming on earth as it is in heaven. The restoration of the world is nearer than we think. Jesus is closer than we think.

Please read and visit her website to test for yourself her credibility through her messages and be convinced of Jesus's presence in the world because of her.

Valentina's website: www.valentina-sydneyseer.com

24th September 2008

Today, I had a vision of Mary Most Holy. In Her holy hands She held some messages and She was looking at them.

She said, "My daughter, I came to tell you not good news. The graces from heaven were given to change and convert and to come back to God for many years".

"From early times, La Salette, Lourdes, Fatima and many other places, the world refused to accept them, but now the graces have been drawn back to Heaven and they will not come back. "She said sadly.

She added, "How proud and stubborn this humankind are in their hearts, not to change for better, they prefer to live in sin and their own comfort. Now the prophecies will start to unfold which were held back for this reason of conversion".

I said, "I am very sorry to hear this sad news." It was a shock for me to hear this. We both cried together.

The Blessed and Beautiful mother said, "I know you all suffer and struggle, but have faith in Me and My Son, Jesus. We will never abandon you. Pray the Rosary and Litany of Loreto every day. That pleases Jesus and Me very much."

I then said, "Are these messages You hold in Your Holy Hands just for me?" She smiled and said, "No, they are for everybody." I said, "I love you, Mother, pray for us all."

28th September 2008

The Angel came to me when I prayed. He said, "Come with me, I will show you what will happen soon."

The vision was so real. I saw a row of high rise buildings, very near a beach. The water was coming up, close to the buildings and gradually rising and touching the units. The Angel explained to me, this city and others everywhere have strong protection like fortresses, built like a fence from God to protect them, now the gates have been lifted up and the seawater will rise and hit directly these places very soon. In these places people sin and offend God too much."

I said, "is there any way to warn the people to do something before it is too late?"

The Angel said, "You can tell people to pray, but not many will listen".

The vision was very scary. I could see the water rise in these parts like dark streams. The people were inside eating and drinking and talking, unaware of what was happening.

"This place seemed familiar to me, " I said to the Angel, "but I have never been there. Maybe I saw it on television". The Angel smiled and said "Let it be God’s will, not yours. You can’t stop it".

12th October 2008

St. Margaret Mary Church

Priest was discussing the recession, when Jesus appeared to me and said, "Yes, My child, soon the world will fall on its knees. The many troubles that are upon you all will reduce humanity to humility and will loose their pride and search for God".

"People will have to go through much endurance and will learn to become more spiritual for the world is too materialistic to understand God’s love".

17th October 2008

at night, I was saying my thanksgiving prayer when our Lord Jesus came and said. "Peace be with you, My child. I know you all are concerned for the economic collapse. Little by little they are falling into recession and big financial disaster. I can only tell you, you will go through very hard times ahead. It will not get better soon, but will only get worse. The world is affected by greedy and wealthy men. They make believe there is no money, but this is all planned by evil men".

"My children, it is not only the third world that will suffer hunger but also wealthy nations. It will spread everywhere. I feel sad for My people but this was foretold long ago. Humanity didn’t accept My prophecy which I spoke through My little simple children. People ridicule them and speak falsely about them.

BE not afraid, Speak My Word. Woe to those who condemn. I shall judge severely those who ignore My Holy Word."

"Valentina, with all these troubles which are upon you all, you have Me. When you are with Me, you have nothing to worry".

The Disturbance

2008-10-29T15:36:00.000-04:00

Something has happened

I don't know what, but I can only anticipate. There is a sense that all which is unfolding in my life now is a metamorphosis for a new experience. Mapping myself through experience gained from being under the divine providence of god, his influence, and my walking with god in the past, I can tell that something is coming, changing, which can only be for the better. It is he behind all the signs which engage me to take notice. To be ready. To prepare. To decide.

It is as if the spirit of god is saying - "AWAKE from your slumber! ARISE from your sleep. Come now and venture forth! Taste and see that I am good!"

This disturbance, these signs, these developments, they all leave me in silence to mull over.
Something is happening . . . . . I can sense it.

The Quiet Ones

2008-10-29T15:33:00.000-04:00

Why is it always the good and quiet ones which are the worst ones out there? And why is that statement almost always true? (for me at least). Doesn't anyone realize that people who smile the most have the most problems? Why is it always the nicest people who turn deadly?

Compare that reality to the reality of a serial killer. He's just going there taking people's lives out of hate for people and the world. Sometimes showing no emotion what so ever. Very heartlessly! What would cause some people to reach that point of insanity?

Obviously, their needs for love and appreciation was not met. Or is it that they were abused? Or used too many times by too many people? Or had a negative self image about themselves created because of hearing people's degradatory comments and opinions made about them, marrying what they know as their own imperfections, therefore confirming their negative self image as true. Can it also be that they couldn't fend for themselves, had problems saying no, neglected their welfare for the welfare of others? Is it that they lost all hope that change for themselves, people or the world was possible?

These quiet people would have in some way tired to help themselves to deal with their situation, but after many failed attempts, they just couldn't cope with it anymore in a reasonable manner. They would fall from grace and then now feel the need to vent violently, drink excessively, do drugs, have rampant sex, curse habitually etcetera.

All the good which they would have held highly of and practiced would have been overpowered by their need for freedom from these their problems. There need for love and appreciation would drive them all into madness. As the Joker said - "Madness is like gravity. All it needs is a little push"

Every human being has his/her limit. Please, remember this and show love and appreciation in every way possible to ease their own pains and turmoil in life.

Hope Is

2008-10-03T18:42:00.006-04:00

Raging and blazing anger are the emotions I feel. the devil tricked me. There was always more, but he covered my eyes.

Liar!....... Liar, Liar, Liar!!! How DARE YOU! You Sicken Me!

You Poison me with your suggestions and confounded thoughts. HOW DARE YOU! Do you hate me this much as to endanger my life? HOW DARE YOU! HOW DARE YOU!

Trusting revelation, I walked along the directed path. The path became coarse and I was drained inwardly. I saw you and you tempted me to indulge myself with your fruit. I resisted at first, then my thirst gave way and I succumbed to your enticements, tantalizing my senses. You said it would make life easier, I stopped journeying. I took. Then in my moment of sweet intoxication, you forged a chain around my hands and feet, restricting my walking and rising. You advantaged me. I could not move.

I became fearful. I lamented my distress. You stood there laughing maliciously. "Alas, I've hindered him, pulled him down into the dust! Just look at him" you said, "Like something less than human" You offered another quench thinking I was stupid to accept your help again. It was your help that caused me pains and sorrows.

I thought to myself - Isn't the life of man upon earth a warfare? and his days like the days of a hireling? Tears rolled down mixing with the dust. Why did I succumb, falling deep into distress. Inwardly if cried outward. Please Help Me! You whose path I first trusted. Pick me up, dust me off and truly quench my thirst!

Then I felt myself rising and positioned to stand. My clothes gently dusted and water touch my lips. "Behold, I make all things new. See? I give you living water restoring your life. Drink and never be thirsty again! I drank and was alleviated. He said "Ecce Homo. Go now, stray no more, bear up yourself and follow the path towards the golden gate. I ardently long to be with you. Come and continue through."

I turned to my distractor - You Liar! You Fibber! This is what you wanted not for me - To be alive and totally free. To know myself and my inheritance; and him who loves me. To reach the end where justice and tranquility be. You covered my eyes and tied my limbs, Oh what trouble you chained me in. To taste your fruit is to taste slavery. Never Again will I listen to thee. Look, the one who made me, helps me. He can't wait to be free with me. Right here is not all all, there, over there, there is still more. Till now, I am not at my last end. There is hope. All was not lost. This is not my last end. I will journey through.

2008-10-02T18:42:00.002-04:00

Our *Deepest Fear* is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves...Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,talented, fabulous? Actually...Who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. *Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you* We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people *Permission* to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Go for it! Live Your Dream! Overcome your deepest fear today!
Lighting 1000 Dreams by the Day!

C.F. Jackson
Won't Be Denied!

On Being Human

2008-09-16T13:32:00.013-04:00

What makes people, people?

In this world in which people behave like animals and they themself degrade themselves, I ask, what makes us human? What identifies us? Is it our bodies? We are different from all of creation, similar only to the apes; similar but not the same. Our bodies are unique. But I do not think this is what defines us. Is it our intellect or our ability to reason? I think not; for it is because of our inability to do this correctly, which produced these inhumane mentalities and behavioural patterns in people, which society breed within themselves, towards each other, and towards nature.

Is it our capacity to love? But doesn't all creatures experience love just as they do fear? That is not a complete answer to the question. I believe that this is crucial to our identity but doesn't define us completely as a person or human being. There must be more!

What is it, I ask myself, which raises man above creation, making him unequal to those others, which distinguishes himself from the rest? In all our known history and from the many experiences of historical persons, I can only come to one conclusion - IT IS GOD. It is god that gives us our identity, raises us beyond our limits, gives us true self knowledge and even transfigures us to be more than human. Only Jesus Christ makes this possible, as he is THE perfect example of the perfect human being. The perfect man, without flaw of body, logic, love, and our true identity. God by himself answered for us our deepest questions for meaning, purpose and definition in Jesus Christ. It came straight from the mouth of the It came straight from the mouth of the apostle inspired by God the Holy Spirit preaching incarnate word -

"You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world." 1 John 4:4 This is what makes us different. What defines us. Yes. Faith in god defines us. We come from god as his "offspring". We can perceive god. The knowledge of the mysteries of god, this is what makes us human; set apart from the rest. We are like god because we are his children. We see for ourselves all we that we can be because we saw his Transfiguration. Yes. That hope which is left for us is unmistakably true. This is what being human is - being like Jesus, that is, like God.

For God Said - "Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness;...... God created man in His own image."

Dying And Rising With Christ - St Leo the Great's Sermon (AD 400-461)

2008-03-27T13:52:00.012-04:00

Christ came to bring us the help which only he could give. In his divinity he was immune to suffering; consequently, once he had assumed our fragile humanity, death could have no permanent hold on him. His immortal nature possessed the power to raise his dead body to life again.

We must cleave to this mystery always, striving with supreme effort of mind and body to be conformed to it. Although failure to observe the pascal solemnity would be very grave offense, it would be still more dangerous to take part in the liturgy without sharing in our Lord's passion. The Apostle's saying is true: If we suffer with him, we shall also reign with him.

We can give authentic worship to the suffering, dead, and risen Christ only if we ourselves suffer, die, and rise again with him. This sharing in Christ's Death and Resurrection begins for all the children of the Church at Baptism, in which sin is destroyed and thy are born to new life, the triple immersion in the water representing the Lord's three days sojourn in the grave. Their funeral pile, so to speak, is brought tumbling down, they enter the font in their old, sin-stained condition, to be brought forth new by the baptismal waters.

What has been effected sacramentally, however, must still be carried out in their daily lives. As long as thy are in this mortal body, those who are born of the Spirit must take up their cross.

So then, if anyone feels himself overstepping the bounds of Christian discipline and his desires drawing him away from the straight path, let him take refuge in the Lord's cross and nail his sinful passions to the tree of life. Let him cry to the Lord in the prophet's words: Pierce my flesh with the nails of your fear, I tremble at your judgements.

To pierce one's flesh with the nail of God's fear is to let the dread of divine judgment curb one's senses from unlawful desires. The person who thus resists temptation and mortifies his concupiscence to prevent it leading him into deadly sin will then be free to say with the Apostle: Far be it from me to boast of anything except the cross of Jesus Christ, through whom the world is crucified to me, and I the world.

Christ has lifted us up with himself on the cross; there let Christians take their stand. They know it is the place where their human nature was redeemed, and all their steps should be directed toward it. For the Lord's passion is prolonged until the end of the world. Just as it is he whom we honour and love in the saints, he whom we feed and clothe in the poor, so too is is he who suffers in all who endure adversity for the sake of what is right; unless, indeed, we are to imagine that, now that the faith has spread thorough out the world and the number of unbelievers has decreased, all persecution has come to an end together with every conflict which ever raged against the blessed martyrs- as if the bearing of the cross were reserved only for those who had to suffer atrocious torments for the love of Christ.

And so those wise souls who have learned to fear and love the one and only Lord and to hope in him alone mortify their passions and crucify their bodily senses, refusing either to fear their foes or to serve them. They prefer the will of God to their own lives, and insofar as they renounce love of self for love of God they love themselves all the more truly.

By such members of Christ's body as these the holy feast of Easter is authentically celebrated, and they will lack none of those victories which our Saviour's passion has won.

-- St Leo the Great (circa 400-461) was elected pope in 440. One hundred and forty-three of his letters and 96 sermons have survived.

My Battle Between Love and Fear

2008-03-11T15:22:00.006-04:00

What an upheaval it has been for me, within me! For since by birthday, the highpoint and beginnings of my signs of change so far, my body and soul has been thirsty for the living water that never leaves us thirsty again. The tumulus battle between Love and Fear wages within me causing an instability of the equilibrium of peace within me. The inner man bears his cross; my mind weighted by thoughts of my human capacities and ideals, because my body and soul craves for a new experience of god. The realm of Christian mysticism experienced by so many Saints (Theresa of Avila, Faustina, Padre Pio) but till now, unknown to me.

The three spheres of conflict stemming from this battle between Love and Fear are in essence- Faith Hope and Love; Wisdom Knowledge and Understanding (of god and self); and living the Way, the Truth, and the Life of Christ. They are all interconnected. If I say I LOVE god, then I should trust him? If my faith is living, then I should have no fear of living the gospel to the letter? Right? This challenge of faith initiated out of love for god caused all of this.

For Lent, I have decided to undertake the difficult task of disciplining and conquering myself for 40 days, in preparation for a future career, and also to know the will of god and understand myself. Alas for me, that I should be a burden unto myself! To deny the flesh, and honour my simple lenten commitments made out of my free will to imitate Christ and his virtues is a very difficult and challenging! I think also that at the age of 21, people want to start building on the foundation blocks laid over the years, so this is the time of "shaping up" for me!

The person who truly knows himself would recognize how frail human nature is. God I know, trusting in the experience of other saints, is using this confusion of mine to merit a humble heart, yet, it seems contrary to me and is very painful to bear. Knowing your weaknesses, poverty, and limitations causes in me an anxiety and fear, yet it is pruning my faith in the hidden and unseen god to trust in divine providence for even greater things. I share this perspective with all so they they too who are in a similar situation as myself, may know two things. That you're not the only one out there who questions faith, love, and life, and two, that all things god uses for the good of those who love him.

My Birthday Miracle - Heaven answers prayers!

2008-02-20T18:02:00.006-04:00

I fulfilled 21 years of age on February 18th. To celebrate such a significant age for me, I took four days to honour it, which began on the 16th to the 19th. On those four days, something special happened.

First of all, I witnessed a miracle. For the whole day and afternoon of Saturday 16th, it was raining and the whole sky was covered with grey clouds. That was the day of my second birthday party after 16 years. I grew concerned because I didn't have tents to hold the 50-60 persons that would arrive in 1 1/2 hours time (8pm). I began to pray. I took out my rosary and reminded Virgin Mary of her promise to those who pray her rosary, and I trusted her to answer my petitions favorably . The promise was this - "You shall obtain all you ask of me by the recitation of the rosary." I also prayed the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. Those two prayers I trusted god to respond to, because of some past, distressing experiences in my life where these prayers proved itself useful. I prayed to see my stars and heaven responded.

Those threatening clouds which showed no sign of removing itself, slowly dissipated. First I saw one star, it was my sign of hope. Then when I went to the back of my apartment, I saw the moon. I rejoiced greatly. For the whole time of the party from 8pm till 2am not a drop of rain. It was my special miracle. I even counted 20 stars. Maybe I missed one. lol. Our Lady held up the rain! Now I know I can trust Our Lady for anything; especially now that in my life, a blanket of fear, caused by a wrestle with love, has rested on me. Growing in faith is a challenge!

The second special thing was, that god was answering my prayer for change. That has been my prayer since the beginning of Christmas. For this lent, and my birthday, I think he is seeing my efforts and is pleased so is acting in response. Again he is using Virgin Mary to wean me into true faith, hope and love. On the 27th I will be doing a 33 day consecration preparation to the Immaculate Heart. I am eagerly awaiting it because for it to come in such opportune timing, it must be from god.

Happy Lent

2008-02-08T08:41:00.000-04:00

Happy Lent to everybody, I hope that it will indeed be a grace filled one. Already I am feeling the presures of maintaining a life of pray and discipline. I pray that to have the fruit of the fifth sorrowful mystery of the rosary - Final perseverance (i.e. to lent's end). Detaching myself from the comforts of material things, human affections particularly, and not complaining but submitting to humility is hard. Countering my pride is a struggle but praise be to god for grace and my desire of conforming my will to his will.

The State of the World

2008-01-31T13:12:00.000-04:00

I am becoming very conscious of the state of the world these days. Since the beginning of advent, my spirit was troubled and I didn't know why. I recognized it as a type of fear, and since it was manifesting itself through my body by a spontaneous jerk, I wanted to discover the root of it. Early this January I identified it to a fear for my survival. It was of course significant for me. I began to react to this fear by pursuing a healthy physical and spiritual lifestyle. I went to the gym, I began to weigh my needs and wants, my spending power, my emotional and intellectual states, and what is important to me that's not necessarily tangible . I started to pursue a life of discipline in a small degree.

Then I came to another realization. The frank possibility of a world crisis about to begin this year. Judging mainly by the political tension in the middle east, the new age movement and the coming age of Aquarius, the economic crisis in America, Global warming and climate change, depletion of natural resources especially crude oil, the mid-completion of a one world government and ethical system, and especially Catholic Christian church approved prophecy. I think we are on the brink of a world war crisis. This is probably why my spirit has been bothered because my family and I are not prepared for a crisis be it shortage of food, water etc.

Very soon I will be calling a family meeting and also I have plans to speak with my church leaders so that the church may be prepared. It these are indeed sign from god, I believe that I should act upon it though I may be considered a fool or a hysteric. I think we better be safe and prepared than not. I share this with you so that you too may stock up on food and essentials for life than waste money on comforts.

Imitation Of Christ - On Compunction of Heart

2008-01-21T12:22:00.000-04:00

The Imitation Of Christ

Book 1: Admissions For A Spiritual Life

Chapter 21
On Compunction Of Heart

If You want to make progress, keep your soul in the fear of God and never wish to be completely free. Discipline your senses and never indulge in hilarity.
Have sorrow for your sins and you will find interior peace. Repentance opens the way to many blessings, which dissipation soon destroys. It is a wonder that any of us can be wholly contented in this life when we think of our exile from God and of the daily dangers our soul faces. But because of frivolity and the negligence of our defects we are unaware of the misery of our own soul. Often we laugh when we ought to weep, for there is no perfect freedom nor real joy except in the fear of God and in a good conscience.

Those are truly happy who have the grace to rid themselves of temptation to distractions and turn to God by sincere contrition. Those, too, are happy who avoid the things that only give them a troubled conscience. Fight hard against your sins; bad habits are overcome by good habits. Do not make excuses that others hinder you; for if you let them alone, they will let you alone to do what you must.k Do not mind other people's business and do not become involved in the affairs of great persons. keep an eye on your own self and reprove yourself rather than your friends. Do not be upset if you are not in the favour of the worldly-minded; but rather be sorry that your behaviour is not that of a devout servant of God.

It is far better for a person to lack consolations in this life, particularly those of the flesh. If we receive little or no spiritual consolations it is our own fault (though sometimes the lack of them is a test of our faith); for we do not have true compunction of heart, nor do we refrain altogether from seeking consolations from without.

Realize that you are unworthy of supernatural consolations, but instead deserve tribulation. The comforts of the world are distasteful to those who have perfect contrition for their sins. Good people always find enough reason to have sorrow and to weep; for whether they look at themselves or think about their neighbour, they realize that no one lives in the world free from affliction; and the more thoroughly they look into thier own hearts, the deeper will be their sorrow. But the cause for real grief and contrition is the remembrance of our sins, in which we are so enmeshed that we can hardly think about spiritual matters.

If you would think more often about death than of a long life, you would be more eager to amend your life. If you thought seriously about the pains of hell or purgatory, you would gladly endure pain and labour, and no hardship would seem too much for you. But since these things do not penetrate the heart and wee still love the false pleasures of this world, we tend to be cold and indifferent.

It is the weakness of the spirit that often makes our wretched bodies complain for the slightest reason. Therefore, humbly pray to God, that in His merciful goodness He will give you the spirit of penance, and in hte words of the Prophet say to Him: Feed me, O Lord, "with the bread of tears" and give me "tears to drink beyoud measure" (Ps 80:6).

Sanctus II - Libera

2008-01-15T20:11:00.000-04:00

I found a lovely, deeply spiritually resounding hymn to our Lord sang my Libera. I was watching a youtube video with pictures of the incorrupt bodies of the saints, and this song, Sanctus II by the boy group Libera, I fell in love with, I decided to put it as my blog's song. Hope you all enjoy.

Blessing Of Friendship

2008-01-11T16:53:00.001-04:00

The Lord bestowed a blessing on me yesterday. The blessing of rekindling a long lost friendship. A friend whom I haven't seen in nine years popped up in a friend request on facebook. Since the last day I saw him in primary school, I was always grieved at his departing from Trinidad, knowing that I may never see him, hear him and socialize with him again in all my life. The only knowledge he left with us was that he was going to live in Canada. As a child, that hit hard. He was one of those I had liked to play with plenty.

Leaving all my childhood friends was hard enough, but knowing that you may never be able to see somebody again was ever more harder for me to accept. Yesterday, god in his infinite mercy showed a QUITE unexpected blessing which I can't thank him enough for. All I could have said was OH MY GOD! I did that for quite some time in disbelief and total shock and awe. I thank god with ALL my heart. Truly there is a god when these sort of things happen.

Christ's Victory Over Hell

2008-01-09T16:18:00.000-04:00

Some time ago, I found this great site for people who wanted to venture and divulge deeper into The mystery of Christ's victory over Satan on the Cross, and speaks about the Seven Last Words of our Lord. It is from the book that I am reading which I so frequently speak about because of its in dept knowledge of the mysteries of God and the hidden lives of Jesus and Mary - The Mystical City of God by Venerable Mary of Agreda Spain

For all those who love The Crucified Christ and His Sorrowful Mother, and Honour his holy wounds and her inexpressible sorrows, I share with you this wonderful book and these passages for your encouragement of Faith, Hope and Love.

Mary's Year - 2008

2008-01-03T15:00:00.000-04:00

"Jesus said to me (Valentina Papagna) while I was reciting the chaplet of Divine Mercy. "Fear not, My children for what you hear or read or see which causes confusion. Have hope only in Me. I want to tell you that the next year is a very special year. It will be dedicated to My beloved and Holy Mother, and many graces will be given to the world. Pray, My children, for all this to happen. This is how you ask; -

' Dearest and loving Father, may we pray to You through Your loving Son Jesus and His Holy Mother for all Her children, that many graces will come through Her intercession. We ask You and thank You through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen' "

This was the message given to the world on 28^th November 2007 by my favorite living visionary, Valentina Papagna of Sydney Australia. Pray many rosaries this year was the request so as to defeat evil works. Here is the visionary's website. I encourage all to listen to the words of our lord in our day and heed his call for love and service through prayer and good works for the world.

Hour of Grace for the world

2007-12-10T15:56:00.000-04:00

For the first time in two years I was able to celebrate one of the feast days dearest to my heart - The Immaculate Conception, with holy Mass. It being a holy day of obligation. The only disappointment I had was that I had to work, and I was not able to renew my medal of the Immaculate Conception. If not, I would have been helping the Legion of Mary by doing some charity work. I for one did my part in making the hour of grace for the world, and the importance of that day known. Everything within my reach was done. I took two days to prepare an article about it, I emailed it to everyone in the institute, placed it on a public notice board, and everybody I met I shared the message boldly. God and Our Lady I trust was well pleased. For that I am happy.

After celebrating the Immaculate Conception, the dawn of salvation and first light as I call it, I now change focus to the no0n time of our salvation - Christmas.

Created In Secret - The North American Union, RFID chip

2007-11-28T17:15:00.000-04:00

I just found out some very worrisome information on youtube. It is about the North American Union which apparently exist but is not publicized and secondly, is created to achieve a global objective set by corrupt men in power. Watch the video as it is very important for every citizen of the world to demand answers, and to be on guard for the lies of politicians. These are the real enemies of state, not religion nor the Catholic Church, but secularism, materialism, atheistic ideologies and the degradation of values through relativism, advocating of capital sins - Greed, Avarice, Pride, Selfishness, Soth, Lust and Anger.

What I do not find amazing is the remarkable similarity of structure this government, with the church's existing government. Historically the church has been wrongfully condemned and injured for this type of authority which in virtue is good when in the hands of god fearing men of faith and reason. These evil minded men really opposed this structure because they couldn't get a share in this power. They in reality were envious of this power like Cain's hatred for his brother Abel, so they persecute the church and condemn the pope!

The North American Union, RFID VChip Secret.

It is amazing how much this existing reality is painted for us in the movies "Star Wars" and "The Lord of the Rings"

Theology of the Body

2007-11-20T16:25:00.000-04:00

This is just a simple account of how god works in everyday life and meets you where you are. I share it with you that you too may recognize his silent workings in your own life.

I can recognize the silent and opportune workings of god. Though I don't know what or why he is doing what he is doing, I feel secure to trust him. One such work of god was, on seeing my incumbent dispair over my particular sin lust, arranged that on Sunday gone, I and my Aspirant brothers attended a little talk about the vocation of marriage. It is fitting that when discerning the call to the priesthood we also discern his calling to the married life. But this was not the reason god had inspired me and arranged that I be there. His real reason was because he wanted me to receive confession after falling again into mortal sin.

My conscience was bothering me because if I went to holy mass, I wouldn't be able to receive communion. God wanted to fix that. He even provided for me a confessor that I admire, who is an exorcist and a well regarded Spiritan Father (Order of the Holy Ghost Fathers), Father Neil Rodriguez. I submitted to the spirit of love and mercy by continuing to journey in that spirit. Because lust dehumanizes a person (me) I gave serious thought to something I really wanted to study to help me understand my manhood and humanity, but have only since been brushing the surface - 'Theology of the Body'. Pope John Paul's counter - revolutionizing work on human sexuality. To facilitate this, I bought a beginners book by renowned author of the subject, Christopher West. Now I am in awe of the beautiful person I am. Made in God's image and likeness.

Facebook Horror

2007-11-07T18:54:00.000-04:00

I am a frequent user of facebook and Hi5 Social Networks. But this flash presentation shocked me. It is very important that ALL FACEBOOK USERS WATCH THIS. All of your personal information is at risk and extremely vulnerable because of this network.

This information must reach the public!!!

Me - The Loyalist

2007-11-06T13:55:00.000-04:00

I took this test and this is what i got. I truly highlights alot about my personality and my needs more than wants. I encourage you to know more about yourselves too. The website and my results-

You Are 6: The Loyalist You have strong relationships and are intensely loyal.
People find you easy to love and care for.

You like your world to be stable and secure, no surprises.
You're cautious. You prefer your inner circle to the outside world.

At Your Best: You are courageous, a positive thinker, and expressive. You can take on the world.

At Your Worst: You are secretly insecure - which makes you sarcastic, cold, and argumentative.

Your Fixation: Doubt

Your Primary Fear: Abandonment

Your Primary Desire: Security and support

Other Number 6's: Mel Gibson, Woody Allen, Jay Leno, Marilyn Monroe, and Julia Roberts.

Traditional Anglican Communion Petitions Rome for Union

2007-10-25T14:00:00.001-04:00

Finally unification is taking place among the protestant and catholic churches. I first heard about this from the spiritdaily.com website TAC has sent a petition for full union with the church on October 16th. I am amazed at the progress of unification! I remember Pope Benedict XVI was saying that his pontificate will focus on the unity of christians. It seems that this may come true in part for him and us. I Started to research and it seems to be true and in the making. The Vatican is supposed to give a response to them.

If this does happen, I am concerned about the effect it will have in our churches and among our priests. Our church is already in a crisis with not having enough priest and secondly, the catholic UNfaithful are becoming less catholic Christian and are abandoning the church. What impact will it have in the lives of both our members? A whole church would now need instruction in catholicism in know what we know, and come to trust what we believe.

I feel sorry for the war torn Anglican Church with all is chaos and confusion among everybody. researching answers for this TAC union, i was reading about the conflict and they all don't know what they stand for anymore. They have lost their identity through their compromising and they need some serious guidance to save that church. I am happy that the Anglican Church, at least the more catholic ones, are making the wise and righteous decisions for their own relief from this distress which they face, and are not accepting the diminishing future which that faith holds. Happy will they be who are converting to the One Holy Catholic and Apostolic Church which alone can say christ established. Read the articles yourselves - free republic, Virtual Online (the voice for Global Orthodox Anglicanism)

Our Mistress Enters Ephesus

2007-09-20T18:22:00.000-04:00

The Most Blessed Mary thanked the owners, who were to live with Her. Then She retired to her room and, prostrate upon the ground as was usual in her prayers, She adored the immutable essence of God, offering to sacrifice Herself in his service in the city (Ephesus) and saying:

"Lord God omnipotent, by the immensity of thy Divinity Thou fillest all the heavens and the earth (Jer. 23,34). I thy humble handmaid, desire to fulfill entirely thy holy will, on all occasions, in all places, and at all times, in which thy Providence shall deign to place me; for Thou art my only Good, my being and my life, and toward thy pleasure and satisfaction tend all my thoughts, words and actions"

The most prudent Mother perceived that the Lord accepted her prayer and her offering, and that He responded to her desires with divine power, ready to assist and govern Her always. - The Mystical City of God by Ven. Mary of Agreda Spain.

I encourage all to Imitate Mary by Imitating Her prayer. Print it, pray it, and memorize it.

The Imitation of Mary

2007-09-20T17:58:00.001-04:00

Recently, I bought and began reading this well known book that was inspired by another well known book. It is The Imitation of Mary, and I would leave to your guess, which book inspired me to buy this book (clue - Change of names). So far, the book does not live up to my expectations, maybe because of the style, or because I don't have confidence in the author, or maybe because I am just to critical and scrutinizing of the teaching. This mostly I feel is the cause of me not enjoying the book. All this I know very well makes what is valuable seem repulsive.

What I do like is the simplicity of the book, and I think this is what makes it stand out. It focuses on the pennies of the gospel and of the graces in the life of our Blessed Mother; and so far, it has helped my walk in imitation of her who loved god most while on earth, and who loves him most intimately in heaven. I decided to share the first chapter of the first book with you, for your edification.

Imitation Of The Virtues Of The Blessed Virgin

Blessed those who do not abandon the way I have bidden them go! Blessed those who listen to what I tell them (Prov 8:32-33) and who follow the models of virtue I offer them.

In putting these words on the lips of Mary, the Church urges us to study the life of the Queen of Saints and to imitate her splendid example. Happy the man who imitates our Lady, for in imitating her he imitates Jesus, king and incomparable model of all virtues.

The Blessed Virgin's life contains lessons for everyone. If we study it, we learn how to live in prosperity and adversity, prayer and work, honours and humiliations. We shall never attain the perfection she brought to every action; but our perfection can be measured by our closeness to her.

You claim to be the servants of Mary: do you really what to become like her in her sublime holiness? Then imitate, as far as you can, her lively faith, her prompt obedience, her deep humility, her selfless intentions, her generous love. Is there anyone of you that cannot make it your aim, with the help of God;s grace, to follow Mary's example in the practice of these virtues: Without such imitation your love for her will be a weak thing indeed, and you cannot expect to receive evident proof of her special protection.

True enough, you recite daily prayers in her honour; you give external signs of your devotion to her; your belong to a society that is especially consecrated to her. And all this binds her to ask God for the saving graces you need. But if your devotion does not take you a step further and lead you to imitatte her virtues, then your devotion will not save you. The philistines took possession of the ark of the Lord and adorned it with their gifts. But the ark did not become a source of blessing for them, because they continued to adore their idols as before.

O Queen of all the virtues, is it not fitting that one who loves you should do for you what he does for his friends in this world? We try to adapt ourselves to our friends' character and to make their likes and dislikes our own. Such adaptation leads to a union of hearts. In fact, we may say that where there is no likeness there can be on friendship. Your heart, Blessed Virgin, is utterly humble, pure, submissive to God's will, and zealous for His interests. How can itbe united in the bonds of affectin to a heart that is pleasure-seeking, proud, unresigned to God's will, and without zeal for His glory?

The Apostle rightly says: "If you love me, then imitate me as I imitate Jesus" (1 Cor 4:16). If you are really my children (Mary says), then make your mother's spirit your own: the spirit of charity, peace, self-denial, and reverent love for God. Holy Virgin, from now on I will show you my loving devotion by imitationg your virtues. THere is no greate homage, no greater proof of love, that I can give.

Observer Status

2007-09-19T18:02:00.001-04:00

These past days I labeled 'Observer Status'.

You know how you feel when you feel like nothing is happening at this moment in your soul, yet you know god is shaping you with the currents of divine love? Fatherly love in particular? That is how I make sense of the silent working of god's action, god's Holy Spirit on me these days. I don't feel like I am on a spiritual high, nor do i feel low. I don't even feel like its a feeling. I imagine that I am in the abode of providence, and what ever happens to me is willed by god. The good and bad things of my day. And I had many.

First of all I was told by my boss to look for another job, mainly because of my irresponsible approach to work. When I was told this, I was calm and relaxed. Something that the average person would not be. I turned to god in prayer immediately, continuing my petition to him for a stable job. Of course it affected me, but I was not frantic and anxious like my usual disposition would be. On the inside was peaceful. I heard that I need to leave at the end of the year. Thank god for the extention.

On top of that my family and I need a house to relocate to at the end of the month, and we have found none as yet. With all of this I am calm and very trusting and hopeful. It must be god at work in me.

Please say a prayer for me and my family. Thanks alot for your support

Chastity, Saint Rose

2007-08-23T14:09:00.000-04:00

Today is a feast that is special to my heart. I love the place in which I live, and the patroness of my home town is Saint Rose of Lima. I naturally acquired a love for her who loved god. I completed my novena in hope of receiving what I prayed for because I am in dire need of it. Today I also did some naughty things which I corrected, when I could have done so, and where I chose not to avoid the occasion of sin, I ask for forgiveness. I tried not to worry about it, and moved on with life trusting in divine mercy.

Tomorrow I set out to a study on chastity for the weekend. I hope to learn something new. I pray god blesses my soul with the virtue of Chastity in the manner he blessed the Virgin Mary. Even if I decide to marry, I pray that I be chaste in some degree befitting that state. I remember the Venerable Mary of Agreda Spain, recording what the words of Our Lady in her book 'The Mystical City of God', Mary says that Chasity adorns all the rest of virtues giving them their brilliance. Can't remember her exact words.

My sins and temptations attack this virtue in me. I pray not to yield to temptation as I did today, against this virtue. May God preserve virtue in me as in Saint Rose.

Mary's Plan

2007-08-14T18:32:00.000-04:00

Yesterday, I wanted to publish this which I read because it had me thinking about god's love and our mother's love for us, caring for us. I believe that it was divine will that I publish it today being the Feast of the Assumption of Mary. In my ignorance, I forgot yesterday, that today was this feast day until late evening. I even didn't go to holy Mass as I was supposed to this morning. This IS a disappointment to me. I plan to go adoration later this evening to celebrate and pray the 20 decades of the rosary in her honour. Anyway, I was reading from the book - "To The Priests, Our Lady's Beloved Sons" This is what I would like to share.

With Me Beneath The Cross
April 8, 1977

Good Friday

"Today, beloved sons, I am bringing you with me to Calvary; with me beneath the Cross of my Son, where I became your Mother.

Here I want to teach you to love.

There is no greater love than to give one's life for those whom one loves. Look at my Son Jesus who is dying on the Cross for you. He is dying because He is giving his life. He is giving his life out of love.
My mother's heart feels him dying and it is pierced by all his horrible agony.
My mother's love unites with his in loving you; my sons, learn from us always to love thus!

Here I want to teach you to suffer.

My son Jesus has become nothing other than the Man of Sorrows. He no longer bears resemblance to a man; He is crushed under the weight of suffering, cruelly beaten outraged, humiliated. He suffers without complaint; as gentle as a little lamb He is nailed to the Cross.
Behold the path along which I am calling you today: that of Calvary which you must tread with docility and meekness.
Do not seek to escape this trial; do not beg for human consolation. You will always find the heart of your Mother who will help you to say yes to the will of the Father.

Here I want to teach you to be silent.

The word of my Son is silent in these final moments. Now He speaks with his life. This is the supreme witness to the will of God.
Thus the last word of his life comes forth: a word of pardon for all and of complete abandonment to the Father.
Learn today especially to be silent. Create a silence within yourself in order to hear only his divine word.
Create silence about yourself. Do ont reply to the criticisms and the calumnies of him who does not accept you.
Give no answer to the sneers and the offenses of him who persecutes you. Judge no one.
In the momenst that await you, you will be called upon more and more to keep silent. YOu will speak by your life. And for you too, from this life of yours on the cross, will come forth the word of love for all men and of complete abandonment ot the will of the Father."

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Because she used the title Man of Sorrows to refer to Jesus, I am making it to refer to Jesus as such. We call Mary the Mother of Sorrows, so I thought I would be nice to call Jesus thus.

St.John Gabriel Perboyre's Prayer

2007-08-14T13:16:00.000-04:00

This prayer has been an almost daily prayer of for me since the day I found it in February? at Saint Quote of the Day's Blog. I must confess and testify that that prayer has strengthened me with the graces necessary for perseverance in self-abandonment, self-denial, and conversion of heart. It has helped re-enforce my will to speak or do the righteous word or deed.

I printed it with the martyr saint, and placed it directly above my mirror with the Divine Mercy Picture below it. Every day I would generally see it and would pray it. Today though I didn't pray it because I did not visit the mirror long enough to glance at it (Instead, I went to morning Mass).

I would like to share with all this Prayer to preserve the line of graces shared by the blog's authors. Let us also seek the intersession of that Martyr Saint, Saint John Gabriel Perboyre.

O my Divine Savior,
Transform me into Yourself.
May my hands be the hands of Jesus.
Grant that every faculty of my body
May serve only to glorify You.

Above all,
Transform my soul and all its powers
So that my memory, will and affection
May be the memory, will and affections
Of Jesus.

I pray You
To destroy in me all that is not of You.
Grant that I may live but in You, by You and for You,
So that I may truly say, with Saint Paul,
"I live - now not I - But Christ lives in me.

--Saint John Gabriel Perboyre

I have hope

2007-08-13T18:28:00.001-04:00

These have been very hard for me. I have been struggling with the temptation to despair and give up hope. Praise god for god. By grace I have not. Hope has been my companion.

Japanese IQ Test

2007-08-06T11:14:00.000-04:00

Ok. I must admit that I took extremely long to find the correct combinations to solve this problem. I got it from http://www.robmathiowetz.com/ using stumbleupon toolbar. People, this thing hurt my brain. And you know what the embrassing thing is, Its so easy. Its a nice Brain Teaser. Enjoy.

Japanese IQ Test

Apparently this is an IQ test given to job applicants in Japan

"Everybody has to cross the river"

To play, click the link below, then click the blue circle to start.

The following rules apply:

Only 2 persons on the raft at a time
The father can not stay with any of the daughters, without their mother's presence
The mother can not stay with any of the sons, without their father's presence
The thief (striped shirt) can not stay with any family member, if the Policeman is not there
Only the Father, the Mother and the Policeman know how to operate the raft

To move the people click on them. To move the raft click on the pole on the opposite side of the river.

** CLICK TO BEGIN **

God Tube video i liked

2007-07-27T16:06:00.000-04:00

Bible vs. Mammon very nice. Go Godtube.com

Opposing Forces

2007-07-26T18:42:00.001-04:00

How do you keep your Sanity when you what to do something wrong? How when you've reached the egde of right into wrong, health into sickness, you safeguard yourself from something you know will hurt your spirit and chip away at your determination and desire for holiness? Why is that what is not good for us in the long run, appeals to us the most. Why does sin have to feel SOOO good?

The book of Wisdom in the bible tells me that perverse thoughts separate people from god. The saints tell us that lust brings down the soul quicker than the other six deadly sins. And the Virgin Mary at Fatima Portugal tells us that most people go to hell for sins of the flesh than any other sin. Is it this knowledge, trusting in faith and hope and love, that makes me what to resist my temptations also?

What a strain it is for me to keep holding on to these two opposing forces in me. It is beginning to rip me apart to the reaches of madness in my mind. I am afraid of giving myself over to one of these extremes entirely for the fear of not having an opportunity to escape. I have never given myself over entirely to anyone or anything in my life because of Trust, yet, these two forces want me to give myself over to their promptings. To God's way of peace and righteousness, caring for each other in love, or Evil's way of destruction and selfishness. Caring only for self and living without morality and faith like wild animals.

I have chosen informally the way I want to take. But, saying no to self is very very hard. I can't yet give myself over to him who loves me most. BECAUSE of fear. In time, love will prevail. I hope in it. If a man lives, but lives without love, he is dead. I am not dead. His divine love in me will conquer my weaknesses and have me for himself.

May His Holy Spirit Live Forever In The Hearts Of Men.

It is he who makes us keep our sanity when we feel insane. He works so quietly!?

Changing Perspective

2007-07-24T15:09:00.000-04:00

God is Calling. I can recognize him calling me from the actions which is happening to me in my soul. I am growing up so things need to change in my life. I just completed my Aspirancy programme and i still have not made any decision about anything firmly save my determination to be faithful to the littlest things. I am going to adopt a contemplative lifestyle to allow god to do his work but what my priest whats of me I think involves Centering Prayer. And unknown to him, that is something I am against because it is anti-christian though it seems to be christian. So what i am going to do is learn more about this centering prayer and its origins before I confront him and say I am not going to do that method of prayer.

One must learn to forget oneself in order to have oneself. I know this only in my head but I don't live it. So what i am going to do is learn to live it. I am going to come out of the spotlight of everybody else, and myself, scrutinizing me and I am going to let God work in silence like how he does it with the plants; it grows in silence, unknown and unseen. Going to do away with anxiety and fear, what I can and cannot do, and allow the god mend me. Going to stop leading myself because I obviously do not know the way to happiness.

The Calling

2007-07-17T15:43:00.001-04:00

I was thinking, "What will capture the heart of a woman?" and immediately I said "Poetry!"

What is there that's better than poetry, to express in words the love for another person? I mean, so much can be said with so little. The symbols of language is really something. Then I said to myself, "What is better than that to express love of god?" I have heard of the high recommendations of people who have studied the insights of Saint John of the Cross on God's Love for the soul, and all his works in the soul in his book, 'The Ascent to Mount Carmel' and 'The Dark Night of the Soul' where he uses poetry to explain this love.

Isn't there a whole book in the bible where god speaks to us in poetry? And in it his beloved is a woman? Oh my, my heart just pulsates when I think of the figurative meaning of words when one speak though poetry! Whoever has that talent is truly blessed. He can shape basic language into exquisite sculptures. So great a marvel is poetry that when sung, it is further glorified and reaches the soul. Though it is sufficient enough to reach that place alone.

Well I have a piece of poetry that I would share that was truly inspired by my love for god, and god's love for me.

The Calling

In stillness, I sit among wonders of creation,
On a bank so moist with tropical grasses
Savoring the one who is closest to me.

I look to the sky and wonder at thy beauty,
Contemplating twas the same hand that shaped me.
I close my eyes and look within, my soul's beloved I want to pin
I am restless with love in the darkness I see.
Why doest thou love do this to me?

This silence of words so sweet it be
A shadow of substance, overpowering me.
I open my eyes only veiled thing I see,
What must it be, to be totally free!

I am the beloved of my beloved
Then I hear a whisper of yearning
"It is you I want, be with me"
I am now dead to the earth and sky
My answer takes alot from me.

Our Interest, The Devil's Intrested.

2007-07-10T18:34:00.000-04:00

Just a little something I found on the Net. Really funny, yet not funny in reality

My Discussion

2007-07-10T18:27:00.001-04:00

My day started off badly as a result of an argument I had yesterday. For yet another time I got into an argument concerning religion. The topics, Hell and the Saints. What got me so upset? - I fumbled when answering the questions. I could explain myself. First discussion was about the Saints. I believe in the Saints. That is unquestionable. But to explain that to a Protestant, who believes in the Bible Alone philosophy and not both Scripture and Teachings from the Holy Spirit (Tradition), is difficult. To top that off I don't know my scripture word for word, verse for verse.

Her defense was the usual with protestants - Go to god and god alone, When people are dead you can't pray to/ask them for help even if they are in heaven, Because Jesus in the only mediator you go to him etc.

They don't understand that nothing separates us from the love of God, not even death. That we are one family of god and when you love, you show love by doing good for others. Their prayer is more effective than our own because of their intermacy. They no longer need to believe because they see face to face the glory of god. Now when I am sick, I call a doctor. It is god who sends the doctor as he sends angels to do his works. Can I not ask the doctor for help? Should I humiliate him by saying you cannot help me though god sent you?

God works through others. No less so when in Heaven. Their prayer is more effective and more powerful than our own because their relationship!

Love or Lust?

2007-07-05T10:38:00.000-04:00

When you see your honey, it's Puppy Love

Is It Love or Lust? Brought to you by Tickle

I took this test and My result was "Puppy Love". I was kind of concerned about my relationship with a good good friend of mine, but we were not in any relationship outside that of friendship, but we're very close. So I was kind of concerned that though I love this person, I may really be trying to lie to myself and say it was love alone and not lust. I wanted to know which side was leaning heavier in me. And what the results were true. This is what it read -

Don't look now, but you just might be in love. It's hard to tell for sure — you've got an awful lot of lustful thoughts whirling around in your brain — but we think hearts and poems are part of the agenda, too. Sure, you're pretty much ready to jump your honey any time of day or night, but you wouldn't bother sticking around if you didn't think there was some kind of potential there.

You want it all — passion, excitement, tenderness, and a best friend to boot. We applaud you. There's nothing better than the perfect mix of lust and love. The former jumpstarts a relationship and helps keep it fresh and fun, and the latter means there's something left after the "right here, right now" phase passes. So get your kicks while you can, but hold on for the long run!

In life you can make your own decisions or let other people make those decisions for you. Being Above The Influence is about staying true to yourself, and not letting people pressure you into being less than you. So be yourself. Or be something less. It's your call.

Thank You Father For Relief

2007-06-25T13:59:00.000-04:00

O How good is the lord towards me. I hid my face from him saying I will no longer look upon his face to see his love and beauty, to even find happiness, and it was he who took me into his hands, pursued me till my love for him was found again. "I thought I had toiled in vain, and for nothing, uselessly, spent my strength. Yet my reward is with the LORD, my recompense was with my God." I grew tired of carrying my sins and imperfections so enormous; he saw my distress and he came to my help. He was with me as I seeked to save my soul from damnation. I was Justified as being righteous and blameless in the sight of god through the Sacraments of the Church. I have received my living water which quenches my thirst!

I must give thanks to god for today, yesterday and Saturday. During these days, I was shown Mercy confirming that truly I cannot leave the love of God even if I try. Life is Better and more meaningful with him.

While feeling down because of my distress, I made the effort again to look to god for a remedy. Feeling embarassed at myself, I trusted god's generosity of mercy and presented my failings to him. On friday wanting to make peace with god I arranged to do some charity work on Saturday. This was me yielding to god, giving God the opportunity to speak to me as I do his work through our soup Kitchen ministry. 12 good deeds/blessings came as a result of my decision to serve in love. To god be the glory.

I received food for my journey plagued with the heat of the sun and a barren desert. My feet are scorched but god provided a time of soothing relief. He lead me beside the still waters and restored my soul. I can at last continue patiently and perseveringly bear my cross.

Keeping secrets

2007-06-20T13:30:00.000-04:00

Simon of Cyrene always helps me carry my cross. Yesterday, I had a talk with my priest. Not surprisingly I told him the state of my soul even though I didn't want to tell him. I realize what St. Therese was saying about keeping secrets and trying to work out problems on your own is a trap of Satan. We all have problems and when we keep it to ourselves it grows like a seed hidden in the earth. Lets not keep things from our confessors. We should listen to Saint James when he saids "Confess your sins to one another"

Fallen Away, Hiding and Seeking

2007-06-15T12:28:00.000-04:00

Gravity pulls and quickly I fall by the wayside. I have hidden my face from god for this time of struggle, hoping that his love for me will blind me, pulling me out of the depths of sin. I have altered my stance in life that now I have stopped searching and have begun to run in the opposite direction. Not searching, only observing. I am trying to rid myself from the grip of fear; mainly the fear of oneself. I have not abandoned god, instead, I put myself in a position that I no longer try to be saved so that god, if he loves me, would act. My yearning for god have reached the point of Insanity. I search elsewhere for it. How dare I do such a thing as walk away from god and dare him to love me?!

I blame the spirit of Lust for pushing me so low. I blame myself for allowing him to do so. I ask god to save me from that stain of sin which makes me desire evil things over good things. I tell myself, If god loves me, he will save me. I have searched everywhere. I have found him yes but I want more of him, and because I can't cross that boundary of Intermacy I go nuts. I KNOW God exist and that he is all love. Well I want that love that satisfies all, and it drives me insane that I don't have it.

My struggle these past four days is a paradoxial struggle. Its like I love god so much that I let him go, and if he comes back then I will live with him forever. I only do this because I have confidence in his love for me. If he doesn't, then I'll pray to die. How can Life be lived without the all substancial love of God. I'll die if I do not know the REAL love of god for me. I prefer death compared to not having his love. I know he love me but I want him to let me experience it in a REAL way. It just drives me insane! I've Tripped!

Human Passions

2007-06-13T15:22:00.000-04:00

My skin is hot and burning with passion right now. I cannot think straight without thinking about sex. These thoughts and feelings of mine betray my character because in the eyes of the beholder, Matthew cannot be thinking about these things so often and passionately. I mean if someone for one day has the grace or curse to be in my shoes for a while say one week, they might just go crazy.

I know the root of my distress - I want the best of both worlds. The world of the flesh and the world of the Spirit. It is very interesting how emotions effect an overriding of reason and right judgment in the human person. There is an even greater urge and stronghold for Lust when a person's spirit "Matches" or has a liking for such activity. Sometimes for these kinds of people it is extremely difficult to say no as compared to persons whose main liking is not Lust but maybe greed or anger. For them it is easier to say no for they have stronger wills in these areas.

My being has this weakness for lustful thoughts. And for persons who suffer from the same temptations as myself, they will understand what i mean when I say that I get into my thoughts.They play over and over again. In these moments, resisting makes the passions stronger. Everything touched or seen or heard is turned into a fantasy. Sin. What a Thing!

Now I am in this position because I have failed to obey instruction. I got myself into this mess (though these thought have not yet led me to sinful action) because was told to cast the object(someone) that causes me to sin aside but I am so very attached emotionally. I am doing the detachment but it takes longer for me than the appointed time that has already past. So I am still attached.

This morning I woke up with a dream of me flirting and kissing a person. Petting and exploring their limits into my kind of sin. Luring them in by my caresses. The previous day I indulged myself into the thoughts and sinned twice. This caused these desires. Do know what the root of these forbidden passions were? - my persistence in disobedience complimented with the cloak of secrecy.

What is the lesson here fellow Christian - Be Vigilant, Obey your Spiritual director and avoid the occasion of sin at all cost, namely by prayer.

Saint Anthony, on your holy feast day, may we as Christians imitate your way of preserving yourself from the most minute sin, in order to be one with Christ. Salus Credentium.

Spirituality of Living in God

2007-06-05T17:38:00.000-04:00

Today while travelling to work I said to myself, - you know Matthew, God is fading away as the main person in my life. The one which engulfs my every thought and desire. Cause in my thoughts there is mainly one person and its not him the lover for the beloved. These days I am more occupied with the love of human beings. This, love that will not last nor satisfy my craving for love - the main characteristic of manhood. So I said. Give God his due now. Don't call that person now and prayer your morning prayer which you put aside Matthew to talk to this person and pray that now. At least.

So I did; and on my second journey to work still began to read the next chapter of my "Spiritual Reading" From the Book, The Joy of Full Surrender, praying that this would be an aid to my examination of conscience. I would like to share this, for it watered the seeds of faith, hope and love in me.

Chapter 1
When The Soul Lives in God

There is a time when the soul lives in god and a time when God lives in the soul. What is appropriate to one of these times is not fitting to the other.

When the soul lives in God, it must take trouble to obtain for itself regularly and carefully every possible means to achieve union with him. The whole procedure is marked out - the readings, the examination of conscience, the resolutions. Its guide is always present, everything is by rule, even the hours for conversation.

When God lives in the soul, it has nothing left of self, but only that which the Spirit imparts to it moment by moment. Nothing is provided for the future, no road is mapped out, but the soul is like a child who can be led wherever one pleases, and has nothing but feeling to distinguish between what is offered to it. No more books with marked passages for these souls; often they are even deprived of a regular spiritual director, for God allows them no other support than himself. They dwell in darkness, forgotten and deserted, in death and nothingness. They suffer distresses and miseries without knowing where to find relief. Keeping their eyes toward Heaven alone, they wait peacefully and without fear for help to come. And God, who seeks no purer disposition in His loved ones than this entire surrender of self-interest in order to live by grace and divine operation alone, provides them with the necessary books, thoughts, self-understanding, advice and wise counsel. Everything that others discover by diligent searching these souls find in self-surrender. What others store up with care so they can find it again, these souls receive the very moment there is need of it, and afterwards the relinquish it again, taking only what God is willing to give, in order to live through Him alone.

Others undertake an infinity of good works for the glory of God, but these souls are often cast aside in a corner of the world like bits of broken crockery, apparently of no use to anyone. There these souls, forsaken by men but enjoying God with a very real,, true and passionate, though deeply tranquil love, attempt nothing by their own impulse. They know only that they must surrender themselves and remain in god's hands to be used by Him as He pleases. Often they do not know of what use they might be, but God knows well. The world considers them of no account, but it is nonetheless true that in mysterious ways and through hidden channels these souls spread abroad an infinite amount of grace on persons who often are unaware of them, people of whom these souls may themselves be unaware.

In these surrendered souls everything effectively preaches the Good News of the gospel. God gives their silence, their quiet, their self-forgetfulness, their words and their gestures a certain virtue, which, unknown to themselves, works in the hearts of those around them; and, just as they are guided by the random actions of innumerable creatures that are unknowingly influenced by grace, they themselves, in their turn, are used to support and guide others without any direct acquaintance with them or knowledge that this is what they are doing.

It is God who works in them in unforeseen and often unknown impulses. In this way they are like Jesus, from whom went out a secret virtue for the healing of others. There is this difference between Him and them: often they are not conscious of the outflow of this virtue and contribute nothign by way of co-operation. It is like a hidden balm which men perceive without recognizing, and which is itself unaware of its own healing virtue

My Miracle on the Job

2007-05-29T18:09:00.001-04:00

Oh what a day! Its been a while since i blogged but today made me want to write.

I challenged the authority of my boss' position on a matter that could cost me my job. And boy was I scared at first. I entreated the lord and he answered in my favour but I still have to face the lurking wrath of the wounded beast. Here's the story -

Job and Church clashed for the first time. And it was ugly. My weekends are committed to Christ and personal development and my normal working hours are Monday - Friday. This Saturday coming, the 2nd June, I needed to be at The office because of exams since my boss was out of the country for ten days. I didn't think that it would have been a problem to compromise the first half of this weekend's agenda with my job's agenda and I was informed yesterday that I was wrong. I had to make the choice between my commitment to my job or the commitment to the Aspirancy programme. If i chose one over the other, the threat was that the other would suffer. I would lose my job or not complete the programme.

upon telling my boss this morning since i only knew that it was a problem yesterday, she issued the treat of serious disciplinary action as stated. This made me cry agonizingly. It all boiled down to the question where do your priorities lie and choose such? And to call my boss in barbados and inform her of my weighty decision.

I locked the office door for ten minutes and prayed the Chaplet of Tears with my own added tears before I looked to engage my next move - to overrule my boss by going directly to the Executive director. To make a long story short, I was successful in my plea. upon hearing of this my boss became even more upset and promises to discipline me when she returns, but I am not worried. God worked it all out in my favour thus far and the word was final. I can't lose my job over an incident which could be avoided easily.

The lesson - Put your trust in God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit, Our god of Providence and His plans for you will come through. Nothing is impossible with god! Hope also on the power of intersession from the Mary Most Holy and God will hastily answer.

Talent Show Lesson

2007-05-24T18:03:00.000-04:00

Today, I sung Josh Groban's 'Remember When it rained' For a Talent Show. Boy was i nervous. And that song I couldn't imitate moves because the song naturally has no movements to it. I found the strength to sing in front of an audience. Something i don't usually do. I nearly always dislike publicity. Yet I thank god that everything came through. Not exactly as I wanted because I was nervous, Yet I didn't 'Buss' as we say in Trinidad.

When preparing to come on stage, i recalled how as Christians we are the ones to be under scrutiny because of our life of Holiness. And how often we end up in the public eyes. I also pondered the challenge for a man to stand up for the truth and win the people's favour and reasoning. This must be an arduous thing

Why Full Surrender? - Chap. 12, Finding The Will of God

2007-05-15T15:45:00.000-04:00

If we are able to greet each passing moment as themanifestation of the will of God, we will find in it all our heart can desire. What could there be more reasonable, more perfect, more divine than the will God? could any change of time or place or ccircumstance alter or increase its infinite value? If you possess the secret of discovering it at every moment and in everything, then you possess all that is most precious and worthy to be disired. What is iit that you seek, you who desire to become holy? Give full scope to your longings. Your wishes need have no measure, no limit. However much you may desire, I can show you how to attain it, even though it be infinite. There is never a moment i which I cannot enable you to obtain al lthat you can desire.

The Present moment is always filled with infinite treasure. It contains more than you have the capacity to hold. Faith is the measure of these treasures; according to your faith you will receive. The will of God is constantly before you like an immense, inexhaustible ocean that no human heart can fathom; but none can receive from it more than he has the capacity to contain. It is necessary to enlarge this capacity by faith, confidence and love.

The whole universe cannot fill the human heart, for its capacity is greater than anything other than God. It is on a highter plane than the material creation, andfor this reason nothing material can satisfy it. The divine will is a deep sea, the surface of which is the present moment. If you plunge into this sea you will find it infinitely more vast than your desires. Offer no homage to creatures;do not adore your own illusions. They can neither give you anything nor deprive you of anything. Receive your fullness from the will of God alone, and it will not leave you empty. Adore it, put it first, before all things. Tear all disguises from vain pretenses and forsake them all going straight to the sole realityy. The reign of faith is death to the senses; it is their spooilation, their destruction. The senses worship the physical. Faith adores God's divine will. Destroy the idols of the senses and they will weep andn rebel, but faith must triumph, becasue the will of God cannot be separated from it. When the senses are terrified, famished, despoiled or crushed, then it is that faith is enriched and nourished. Faith laughs at these calamities as the commander of an impregnable fortress mocks at the useless attacks of an impotent foe.

When we recognize the will of God and surrender entirely to it, then God gives Himself to us and we experience the most powerful assistance in all difficulties. Thus we enjoy great happiness in this comin gof God, and the more we learn to surrender ourselves to His all adorable will at every moment, the more joy we have.

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Jean~Pierre de Caussade,
The Joy of Full Surrender
revised translation by Hal M. Helms

Missionaries

2007-05-14T14:02:00.000-04:00

"Missionaries plant seeds of love that help countless hearts to grow."

- Now doesn't this remind us of the WHOLE life of Blessed Mother Theresa?

Christ has no hands but yours

Christ has no body but yours,

No hands, no feet on earth but yours.

Yours are the eyes through which he looks,

Compassion on this world.

Yours are the feet with which He walks to do good.

yours are the hands whith which He blesses all the world.

Yours are the hands

Yours are the feet

Yours are the eyes

you are His body.

Christ has no body

now but yours,

No hands, no feet on earth but yours.

Yours are the eyes

through which He looks,

Compassion on this world.

Yours are the feet whith which

He walks to do good.

Christ has no body

now on earth but yours.

- Saint Theresa of Avila

What a Funny thing! I didn't realize that Saint Theresa wrote this and I was Firstly reminded of Another Theresa, Mother Theresa.

The psalm that speaks to my soul

2007-05-14T13:08:00.000-04:00

From the Instruction of my priest, I have to obey and pray my morning prayer for at least twenty minutes before I begin my day. Today It began with a rough start. I prayed it. But on my way to work. It therefore took the usual place of my rosary time. In our Morning and Evening Prayer Book which the Catholic Church gives us for each day of the week and church seasons of the year, Today's Liturgy captivated my attention. For the lenght of the day I carried this scripture in my mind and heart pondering it there like Mary for the rest of the day. Consciously or Sub-Consciously. This scripture - Why are you cast down, my soul, why groan within me? Hope in God; I will praise him still, my saviour and my God - Spoke to me. I guess the Psalm was telling me persevere and be full of cheer. Purifying my soul is a cross that must be carried, so keep at it Matthew.

Psalm 41

Like the deer that yearns

for running streams,

so my sou is yearning

for you my God.

My soul s thirsting for God,

the god of my life;

when can I enter and see

the face of God?

My tears have become my bread,

by night, by day,

as I hear it said all the day long:

'Where is your God?'

These things will I remember

as I pour out my soul:

how I would lead the rejoicing crowd

into the house of the God,

amid cries of gladness and thanksgiving,

the throng wild with joy.

Why are you cast down, my soul,

why groan within me?

Hope in God; I will praise him still,

my saviour and my God.

My soul is cast down within me

as I think of you,

from the country of Jordan and Mount Hermon,

from the Hill of Mizar.

Deep is calling on deep,

in the roar of waters:

your torrents and all your waves

swept over me.

By day the Lord will send

his loving kindness;

by night I will sing to him,

praise the god of my life.

I will say to god, my rock:

'Why have you forgotten me:

Why do I go mourning

oppressed by the foe?'

With cries that pierce me to the heart,

my enemies revile me,

saying to me all the day long:

'Where is your God?'

Why are you cast down, my soul,

why groan within me?

Hope in god; I will praise him still,

My saviour and my God.

good things

2007-05-11T15:32:00.000-04:00

Very busy week. Good things are happening like crazy. I am now Stable at my job. I remember more clearly and I am in a better position in my spiritual life. In my last post, I wanted to write down something from this book I am reading as a spiritual reading for the year - Why full surrender - It caught my attention when I read it some days ago and I needed to share it with you but I purposely forgot because I was packing for my second aspirancy weekend. I actually came to work with One BIG bag of clothes. thank god no one saw. lol. going to enjoy this life in the spirit. Namely the spirit of obedience over the weekend.

Internet

2007-05-09T16:53:00.000-04:00

This Internet access is just fueling temptation for a man overcoming a porn addiction! Alas I am not lost, for St. Anthony helps to strenghten me.

1. An Update. 2. Original Pain Therapy

2007-05-08T15:11:00.000-04:00

Today I see the counselor. In my eyes I am pretty ok now, after relaxing myself over the weekend, and hand another important chat with my priest. Though I feel this way, I could still like to use some advice from a psychologist's perspective. I thank Saint Anthony for his prayers and his presence today, since it was yesterday that I completed my Novena. I have indeed become stronger and more stable in my spiritual life and in my workplace. As I write this post, I feel like watching pornography because of a lustful advertisement and some blogs which I browsed. I am feeling the heat of the sin but I am not venturing into the fire. This strength of resisting temptation is improved but I still feel that I need help.

I am glad that I am getting over those two months of frustration and anxiety over myself because it was not a nice feeling. Over weekend again, In the Aspirancy Programme for discerning my vocation, the group of us ventured into Original Pain Therapy. This is a special therapy that deals with childhood pains from the womb till the age of 12 (the end of childhood). I can't wait to do the next session because we started to venture into ourselves. I recommend this to every person. Everybody has issues in their lives that has its roots in childhood like myself that needs to be soughted out to free the adult.

God Our Father

2007-05-03T15:34:00.001-04:00

I Love God My Father! for today he has saved me from loneliness and sorrow. He raised me up when i couldn't reach him anymore of my own effort. He came to me bring relief of body and soul. He came to me to make my life easier to bear.

I speak like this because for the past two days, i couldn't find the love to love. Even to love myself. I had just got suspended from my job for a day because of excessive mistakes with my work which i thought was so perfectly done in February. These errors haunted me and made my boss angry and very disappointed in me. What made the situation worst was my boss would have gotten into ton loads of trouble if an assessment of our department was done this semester since the institute is becoming accredited. This would have been because of my fault.

This was on Tuesday. That night I cried like a baby. I just didn't know what to do with myself since everything that seemed like my fault. not just work but everything. I need to see Jesus now now. I live not too far from a church which I remembered have whole day adoration. So late in the night around 9.20 I dressed myself and headed down to the church. there I weeped silently restraining my groaning as I addressed Jesus sacramentally present. Couldn't cry as I wanted because I was not alone. After finishing, I was more at ease with my pains.

Yesterday, at home, thinking about my life, God the father came to me. I needed a father so I yielded to his inspiration. I read the Messages from the only known and church approved Apparition of God the Father to Mother Eugenia Elisabetta Raviso?. After reading such a soothing love note to my person, God raised me, urging me to remember my dignity of being called his child. And as his child he deserves the right to serve me. He yearns to be with me in my troubles and rescue me from sadness, because his love cannot stand idle and indifferent while his child suffers. God our Father is the Best of Fathers. He reminded be that my reward for loving him and letting him love me would be great in heaven, and that I would be blessed because I believed without seeing.

These Messages of god entitled "The Father Speaks To His Children" was like drinking icy cold water under desert sun temperatures. It was like my soft comfortable bed after a tiresome day. I was absorbed into the moment of spending time with my father who loves me and do not want me to be afraid.

I encourage everyone to read these messages meant for all of us individually, since in my own estimation, many people do not know of these apparitions, more less, the messages. Its like an undiscovered treasure of riches. A secret that NEEDS TO BE TOLD.

Saint Anthony of Padua

2007-04-27T14:34:00.001-04:00

I remember my priest telling me some time ago that St. Anthony, instead of him running away from god when he had plenty problems, He ran to god instead. Hearing this brought me some encouragement to run to god with my problems. Yesterday I was fighting up with myself to go to god and I was saying/praying desperately - "Lord, now you stretch out your hand to help me. I can't can reach out anymore. It is you that need to catch me, I'm unable to continue the journey and reach out anymore. Lord Jesus HELP ME. I am losing myself to myself, drowning in my misery!"

It was then that I thought that I should do a novena to one of those saints who were sinners like myself and at the end of it all inherited heaven. And I remembered what my priest said. I feel like I need a saintly male figure or a Saintly man's prayer for help because some of my problems were of masculine origins. . I narrowed it down to my patron saints to which I have five - St. Simeon (from confirmation), Matthew, Anthony, and Peter because those were my names, and St. Martin de Porres because his intersession healed me at a time in my life. Right now I am juggling between the St. Martin de Porres and St. Anthony of Padua, and I have a feeling that I would choose St. Anthony because his feast day is in June.

I took the time yesterday to write in my journal all my burdens because I want to remember what I am shouldering these passing days; I have the hope that these days of darkness would pass though my faith is dimming as I would estimate. I am praying that I make the right choices for the direction of my life, as 2007 is my year of DECISION. I did not designate this but it was my priest. I have so much to lose if I decide wrongly, One MONSTER skeleton among many in the closet and if they get out or I take them out, it would be a messy situation for me. I want to be free from fear and failure and live happily, Certain that in suffering, I become a better man and draw closer to god. THAT is my ultimate goal!

Aspirancy Programme

2007-04-25T15:09:00.001-04:00

My week of uncertainty is finally coming to a close. This past week i have been anxious about the situation at my job because my boss was getting annoyed when my incapabilities was showing itself. And I would understand why because if i was her, I probably would too.

This weekend gone as well, I finally started this new programme called the Aspirancy programme that was geared towards a deeper discernment of the call to the priesthood. It is structured to be something like a seminary life experience but the difference is that it would last three months and we would continue to live how we live now, with regards to our jobs and commitments. Wasn't particularly excited when the directors said that the group of us were to begin a mission in the village of Guayaguayare (Amerindian Name).

I was thinking to myself- I am not in a position or state of mind and body to do this. I am going through a little crisis of my own and i am being called to a mission. again. now?- That was the last thing on my mind but I suspected that the programme would have had a mission intertwined.

Getting Tough

2007-04-16T17:59:00.001-04:00

God is really is working in my life. This I know because hard times are coming. Some things that he is doing is hard to accept though I know that I must 'play along'. Two things I realize is happening right now. that god is preparing me for my desert experience where i must depend on him and him alone. This mind you is my prayer being answered. a difficult prayer being answered. My focus is forced to change and that is exactly how I want it to be. Let me give some examples.

1. I looked for love and affection from people, and god is allowing those people to care less about loving me.
2. I am having trouble taking control of my life, and my director tells me that we need some time-off.
3. I love my friends lot and now because of my director leaving, the majority of them will be visited less frequently.
4. I am about to enter into and 'Aspirancy Programme' which practically is a structured programme for men interested in the priesthood to be in a formation / discernment environment.

I was disappointed a little for the Octave of Easter, but this Mercy Sunday I made it my duty to cry like a baby, and present my brokeness finally in totality before god. No longer am I going to worry about my inabilities and vulnerabilities. I take it to Jesus, entrusting myself to him and his mercy.

I consider Divine Mercy Sunday a second Easter Sunday or Good Friday, because thats the day not a single flood gate of heaven is closed as Jesus has said in the Diary of St. Faustina.

Busy Week. The Mercys Thereof

2007-04-12T15:09:00.000-04:00

O Lord! This whole week, gone and present, has been tough and demanding. yet still I don't feel the pinch. Easter weekend was a High and a very Low for me. Did everything the church required and felt good. The low was that I did something really really stupid on Easter Sunday of all days, but this stupid act taught me something I needed to know, and it also made some people in my life closer to me. It confirmed some strengths within me, especially the need for secrecy, and my love for Bl. Virgin Mary. The Rosary in fact did save me from disaster because the thing I feared doing the most never came to past and I was preserved from falling into that particular sin. Praise Jesus and Mary! You know what happened instead? I GOT DRUNK! never in my life again!

I really don't know how people, after getting drunk the first time, get drunk a second, third, fourth and fifth time. They must really not love themselves! one is so vulnerable and out of mind! I was even afraid of choking on my vomit and dying while asleep! I will never do this to myself again. No matter how much I trust the people I am with. (and they were true)

It made me wonder of the state of other person's lives who are drunken daily. How they must be very depressed or troubled in their lives, those who do not know what true love is and therefore cannot stop willingly till they know love. This thought was a very sad thought. That some people so hate themselves. O God if they only knew Jesus, they would find the will power to change.

I blamed myself alot for many things when I was drunk, and my friends were mad at me for that because we all drank together. but I felt responsible. And talking about will power, I was, Easter Monday, saddened again by the lack of self control I have, and how I seemingly always fall into the occasion of sin willingly without obstruction. I was contemplating 'should I go to Jesus again? Trouble him again? - I was thinking of this when I was drunk too - I can't help myself at all or make any right decisions for myself. That is SUCH a Weight on my neck and shoulders to bear. You really get to know yourself when you begin to know god. And it is an intimidating feeling. When I was drunk i kept saying "Only Mary can save me! Only Mary can save me!" I just don't like to offend Jesus like this every time. I needed the love, prayer and protection of a Mother, The only love I truly knew.

In order to correct this lack of self control, I get stern with myself and undergo a lock down. I need to be disciplined to make the right choices I say. My priest already tells me that I must not fear myself because I do all of this as a result of fear, and his guidance and observations of me, not only in this aspect but also alot of aspects, is truthful and very hard to hear. Its like he's touching the 'soft spots' in my being and pointing them out to me. the places where, if people exploit it or know about it, they can devastate me easily. My flaws in being. And when I often am overcome by them, I am afraid of running to god because it is his laws I offend. I am afraid to go to him alone and beg for mercy. I need to go with someone whom he knows and is intermit with, some who knows him and has confidence that he will give mercy. And I choose Our Mother Mary.

I have confidence in the mercy of god and i know he does not refuse a repentant sinner but it is hard to admit guilt and ask forgiveness. I never regretted the day I read the Diary of Saint Faustina. I know god loves to show mercy, and he prefers it. And come this Divine Mercy Sunday (15th April, 2007) I will do every thing possible to adore and worship the Generous Mercy of God. In my next post I will expand on my week's experiences and lessons - Real commotion happening.

Vultus Christi Blog

2007-04-05T12:51:00.001-04:00

One of the Best Catholic Blogs Ever belongs to Vultus Christi and not only that. Fr. Mark its author clearly chooses the most remarkable pictures. This is a must "add to links" selection

A Tool For Battle

2007-04-05T11:59:00.001-04:00

The Holiest week for the christian is here. Finally the greatest season for me is approaching, the season where there is so many Feast days. Easter Season. Being faithful to the good Lenten practices has been a challenge. But it all boils down to this. The death of our lord and the Three day liturgy. My God how i love my country Trinidad and Tobago. Good Friday and Easter Monday are Holidays and that means ReAL people 'hitting de beach'. Four days of no work!

I am and have been struggling to keep my thoughts and actions pure for this holy week and seriously hope and pray that I do nothing foolish or regretful over this long weekend. And I think i know the answer to keep it so. The Rosary! I just finished reading an exciting, piety driven document on the rosary by Pope Leo XIII on - Devotion of the Rosary written in 1883. What caused me to read that document? This post by a blog called 'The Holy Rosary' he had a link to the Vatican's Rosary site

St. Louis de Montfort really knows how to steer My heart. - "If you say the Rosary faithfully until death, I do assure you that, in spite of the gravity of your sins 'you shall receive a never-fading crown of glory.' Even if you are on the brink of damnation, even if you have one foot in hell, even if you have sold your soul to the devil as sorcerers do who practise black magic, and even if you are a heretic as obstinate as a devil, sooner or later you will be converted and will amend your life and will save your soul, if-- and mark well what I say-- if you say the Holy Rosary devoutly every day until death for the purpose of knowing the truth and obtaining contrition and pardon for your sins."

Lord, Transform me into yourself

2007-04-02T15:21:00.000-04:00

When you say - " lord, Transform me into yourself" be prepared to be in a very uncomfortable position. A place where you do not enjoy, and must challenge yourself to OBEY his instructions and trust in his providence.

I am on the brink of ruin in my own eyes. And this saddens me deeply and I wonder seriously for the second time in my life whether I should continue to live the life of the Gospel and Seek holiness. The work involved in saving my soul and by passing purgatory is tedious. And when faced with the sight of my weaknesses, lackings, failings in life and all of my faults and imperfections, the whole thing looks overwhelming, and holiness, unattainable. But i cannot accept this because i know Wisdom teaches the contrary. That holiness in attainable and god uses our weaknesses as our strengths. Yet I am a burden to myself. What hurts me too is that others confirm these frailties in me by their jokes, gestures and harsh words.

My God, how much of myself I must give to you to be holy! How much this act of love hurts me! To be totally submissive to you and your teachings! That I must Deny myself, pick up my cross and follow you, for my own salvation sake. Seeing the ugliness and the fractures of my body and soul, makes me deeply sad and want to despair. Yet I will trust in your mercy, and hope against hope.

Conversion to the Fullness of Truth

2007-04-02T14:10:00.001-04:00

The Living Church Foundation has published and article that alot of catholic blogs are publishing. And thats because it is great news. Finally there is a hope of reunion with the Catholic Church.

Searching for God and Self

2007-03-29T14:35:00.001-04:00

My soul feeds off of today's word which the church so wisely designates for us. Today for me is a continuation of my struggles to know myself and to conform my will and live for god.

This particular sin of mine has burdened me to the point of me just screaming. I feel like not crying out for help to god or to any man because I constantly allow myself to fall. I feel like i can't help myself because I continually seek after what is wrong and malign in my thoughts. I am saddened by this greatly though i am without despair. Anxiety finally takes hold of me. What crushes me mostly is the fact that i don't care as much as i had done before. That I am desensitized to evil and wrong doing, and i have little remorse for sin. I am losing uprightness because of the absences of grace and fear of the lord. my weaknesses and lackings makes itself known. And as a man I dislike being weak and lacking.

My day began with this wrong doing. For me, when I do not give my first hour to god, It is like an offense. I was trying to, for this lent, begin my day with god. I wondered to myself: should i call on god's help? God's mercy?

While travelling to work, I didn't even pray my rosary as usual but began to think. my physical outlook was sad. "I will go to my mother" I said, and i took out the Marian book i had and read this -

Mediatrix of Graces

"Beloved children, I am the Mediatrix of graces. grace is the very life of god which is communicated to you. it springs from the bosom of the father and is merited for you by the word who in my virginal womb, became man to share with you that same divine life, and for this he offered himself as a ransom for you, becoming thus the one and only mediator between god and all humanity.

From the bosom of the father, grace, in order to reach you must therefore pass through the divine heart of the Son, who communicates it to you in his Spirit of love. Just as a ray of light, which passes through a window, assumes its shape, color and design, so too divine grace, merited by Jesus, can come to you only through Him and it is for this reason that it reproduces in you his own image, the very same image which shapes you ever more and more to his own person.

Divine life can reach you only in the form of Jesus, and the more this increases in you, the more you are assimilated to Him, in such a way that you can really grow as his little brothers.

By means of grace, the Father communicates himself to you ever more and more, the Son assimilates you, the Holy Spirit transforms you, bringing about a relationship of life with the Most Holy Trinity, which becomes ever increasingly strong and active. Within souls who are in grace, it is the Most Holy Trinity itself which takes up its dwelling place there.

This Life of grace has also a relationship with your heavenly Mother. As i am truly the Mother of Jesus and your Mother, my mediation is exercised between you and my Son Jesus. This is the natural consequence of my divine motherhood. As the Mother of Jesus, I am the means chosen by God by which my Son can reach you. IN my virginal womb this first act of mediation of mine is carried out. As your Mother, I was the means chosen by Jesus that through me all of you may reach Him.

I am truly the mediatrix of grace between you and my Son Jesus. My task is that of distributing to my little children that grace which flows out from the bosom of the Father, is merited for you by the Son and is given to you by the Holy Spirit. My task is that of distributing it to all my children, according to the particular needs of each one, which the Mother is very good at knowing. I am ever carrying out this duty of mine. However I can carry it out fully only in the case of those children who entrust themselves to me with perfect abandonment. I am above all able to carry it out in respect to you, my favorite sons who, by your consecration, have entrusted yourselves completely to me.

I am the way which leads you to Jesus. I am the safest and shortest way, the necessary way for each one of you. If you refuse to go along this way, you run the danger of being lost in the course of your journey. Today many have wished to put me aside, considering me an obstacle in reaching Jesus, because they have not understood my function as mediatrix between you and my Son. And so, never before as in these present times, are so many of my children running the risk of not being able to reach Him. The Jesus whom they meet is often only the result of their human research, and corresponds to their aspirations and desires; He is a Jesus formed according to their measure: he is not Jesus, the Christ, the true Son of God and of your Immaculate Mother.

Entrust yourselves to me with confidence and you will remain faithful, because I will be able to carry out fully my work as mediatrix of graces. I will take you each day along the way of my Son, in such a way that He may increase in you to his fullness.
This is my great Work, which I am still carrying out in silence and in the desert. Under my powerful action as mediatrix of graces, you are ever more transformed into Christ, that you may become fit for the task which awaits you. Forward then, with courage, along the way traced out by your heavenly Mother"

With yet still a downcast appearance, I pondered on these words and won some hope and strength to continue. When I came to work now, I read the reading for the day and I ATE that Gospel up. I CONSUMED him who was the word. because Jesus was questioned about himself and in god he found himself. That is what i want. I do not know exactly how this word affects me but i feel like I gained some peace and grace to carry on.

Allah's Wicked, Warlike and Pretensive Children

2007-03-27T15:46:00.001-04:00

This is an article i found on Agnus daily and would like to get some feedback. Is this true? If it is, then the pope was right to quote the Byzantine emperor -

“Show me just what Mohammed brought that was new, and there you will find things only evil and inhuman, such as his command to spread by the sword the faith he preached.”

"Muslims train special forces ninjas in response to Catholic aggression

In response to Catholic aggression and proselytizing, Muslim countries have begun to train ninja-like special forces units that are designed to inhibit the spread of Christianity. The units are to be strategically placed throughout Europe, and will be used to secretly collect information on local Churches and Church officials that seek to promote Christian moral values, and theology. Muslim leaders admit that there are only a handful of Churches in Europe that these units will be assigned to, but it is seen as a necessary pre-emptive measure in order to maintain the stable growth of Islam.

Posted March 25, 2007@12:01 by Dean Soto"

What is this Catholic Aggression and Proselytizing they are talking about. All the Church has done is respect their religion and show truth through Faith and Reasoning. not through violence.

If this is True then the Emperor of Old and the Modern Pope was Accurate in their Observations and Judgements!

My Annuncation Day

2007-03-27T15:24:00.001-04:00

for the past two days my eye have been jumping. and we have a saying in my country that when the right eye jumps, you will see someone you haven't seen in a very long time. when your left eye jumps, you are going to hear some bad news. And almost everytime it is true. Yesterday I got up with my eye jumping and i was wondering, who was i going to see?

Yesterday was the feast of the Annuncation and I must say that i spent it reverently as i could. God permitted that I start the day with Adoration in my Church, Something that i haven't done in quite along time, and there I praised God for his gift of mercy to mankind (Blessed Virgin Mary) and offered my day to him permitting whatever he wills to happen to me, may happen to me. later on in the day i attended church half way through the mass. I was thankful but didn't receive communion. I also was tempted to fall into a certain weakness but i was able to resist. But i felt the 'heat of the flames' (the temptation)

So many people do not know the importance of this day.....to their loss. So many graces to behold, so much love shown. If only i could imitate the love of her, who loved god most while on earth, and who loves her most intermittly in heaven! oh would that be a joy. To be totally under the divine providence of god. My prayer is that I may know and understand the full dept of this Mystery of God and Mary in the Incarnation of the Word of God.

My Burden of Sin. My Hope in God.

2007-03-22T18:16:00.000-04:00

Do you hate when you cause yourself to sin? That is me. For the pass two days I have allowed myself to fall into the occassions of sin. I hate when i do that. When I choose to disobey god and destroy myself in the process. Its like this. We are told not to smoke because it's unhealty for you and kills you faster. I causes you pain and suffering and it destroys inside of you...BUT YET you ignore that fact and continue because it feels good! And that the problem with sin. It feels good, and it is only after we have committed the sin that we feel guilty, and its only later on in life we wonder why such and such a thing is happening to us.

Sometimes I wonder, "why do I even bother to try and get better? Every time i try to i end up doing the same shit again!" The answer is really simple, and i have learnt it. Unless you decide for Goodness/Righteousness, you will never be happy. You must always keep trying. And that's the plain truth. God did not make us to suffer, we chose that for ourselves, but we have to suffer because it makes us happy people in the long run. Virtue I learnt is acquired through habit. A person who complains is never happy. A person who is a peace is.

We have to suffer because it is the means for our salvation.

Another answer to this question because God has promised Mankind (me) that if you live the life of the Gospel, and Trust in His mercy, How can he as a Father not forgive me and help. He said he will restore mankind (me) to his former glory (The Mystical City of God book), He said that he awards the effort more than the achievement (Diary of St. Faustina). So that gives me courage to continue. Guilt is good because it let you be aware of you sins and repent for them. Yes he is Just but he favours mercy. Being just if you look at it carefully is really an act of Mercy. Thats why there is a Saving Justice.

St. Joseph, St. Imelda

2007-03-19T12:51:00.000-04:00

Today on the Solemnity of St. Joseph, my attention turns to Blessed Imelda Lambertini. Hey, this was not my choice. I'm alreadying feeling bad that i have not don't anything to honour him today. Maybe later i will say pray and honour him in a special way. Anyhow, my attention turns to Blessed Imelda because I need to find her story. There is so may versions of the story online but just not the one i am accustomed to hearing. She is another example of purity of soul and love for our lord in the Eucharist. I so happened that my teacher is converting to catholicism and she needs a patron saint and i suggested a few that i have a relationship with - St. Faustina, St. Theresa of Avila, St. Philomena.....as i said st. Philomena I remembered St. Imelda.

I first came to know about St. Imelda by Reading her story in a book "Incorruptibles" A book i hope I purchase one day.

Wisdom Sharing

2007-03-16T15:36:00.000-04:00

Today was designated by the Archdiocese of Port of Spain as the day for Prayer, Fasting and Alms giving. and i must confess that i have not done this to any significant degree. What i have done was used my work as my prayer.

Instead of complaining, i offered this thing that i didn't want to do for god's own sake. This is the way to holiness according to the famous writer of the book "The Joy of Full Surrender" by Rev. Fr. Jean-Pierre de Caussade. He says :-

In Truth, Holiness consist of one single thing: faithfulness to the will of God. Now this faithfulness is within the reach of all, whether it calls for active or passive practice of our faith.

Active faithfulness means fulfilling the duties which are ours by the general laws of god and of the church, or by our particular state of life. Passive faithfulness consists in the loving acceptance of all that God sends us each moment........ Learn what you seem to do not know: In the realm of nature, the god of all goodness has made those things easy which are universal and necessary - breathing, eating, and sleeping. No less essential in the supernatural realm are love and faithfulness............The passive aspect of faithfulness is easier still, since it only consists of accepting what most frequently cannot be avoided, and in bearing with love, consolation and sweetness, what we too often endure with weariness and irritation......All they have to do is to fulfill the simple dutiesof a Christian and of their state of life, and bear with submission the crosses involved, and to accept with faith and love the work and suffering which unsought come endlessly to them through God's own providential designs. This is the spirit by which the Patriarchs and Prophets were moved and sanctified.....

Moving on. Besides all of that,

Today I Finally decided to spend the time and figure out how it is to place that

banner on my blog. For anyone else who is looking for the format to place it on their blog, here is an easy way. click on my banner, save it on your pc, then do like if you are going to write another post for your blog, click 'insert picture', when it is inserted into your blog posting area, view it in 'edit html'(you are not going into your template as yet). when that is done copy and paste it into your template in the place where you want your picture to be. I dont know anything about HTML but i used my common sense to figure out stuff. so if youre getting trouble, use yours.

Salus Credentium.

Another Experience With God

2007-03-14T14:01:00.001-04:00

These days God really has been working behind the scenes to govern my life. Let me tell you how i know this. Firstly, things just happen to fit together! Example: Right now i am nearly out of Funds since the beginning of march. This is because of unwise spending, an early pay cheque and an unexpected expense (I got the opportunity to replace my glasses). So my funds are really low and it is now the 14th March and pay is later down in the month. my main concern is passage which is nearly $34 daily.

Guess what god did. He arranged it so that I would be spending approximately $15 daily! He made arrangements so that i can meet people who are kind hearted and generous. Every day in the evening after work, i sometimes get a lift down into the city (save $4) after that, i am getting a drop from the city to my home nearly every day for this week by my priest (save $5 everyday). I "Band my belly" (control appetite) with less and less effort now so that i dont buy $12 lunches everyday. These simple graces i am thankful for

On the spiritual side, my daily association with my priest who is "coaching me", god is putting order into my life. I am praying every single day now because of a grave issue in my family and now my family is praying even more!

Who says there is no god is a LIAR !!! In my individual, personal life. i am seeing god show his love and his goodness.

Protestant Joke

2007-03-13T11:15:00.000-04:00

This post I like. It is from another blog 'Veritatis Visio' and it made me chuckle alittle. I like the point which it was making.

I was walking across a bridge one day, and I saw a man standing on the edge, about to jump off. I immediately ran over and said "Stop! Don't do it!"

"Why shouldn't I?" he said.

I said, "Well, there's so much to live for!"

"Like what?"

"Well ... are you religious or atheist?"

"Religious."

"Me too! Are you Christian or Jewish?"

"Christian."

"Me too! Are you Catholic or Protestant?"

"Protestant." "Me too! Are you Episcopalian or Baptist?"

"Baptist."

"Wow! Me too! Are you Baptist Church of God or Baptist Church of the Lord?"

"Baptist Church of God."

"Me too! Are you Original Baptist Church of God, or are you Reformed Baptist Church of God?"

"Reformed Baptist Church of God."

"Me too! Are you Reformed Baptist Church of God, reformation of 1879, or Reformed Baptist Church of God, reformation of 1915?"

"Reformed Baptist Church of God, reformation of 1915!"

To which I said, "Die, heretic scum!" and pushed him off.

The Immaculate Conception

2007-03-09T11:51:00.000-04:00

Ok. this link is very very long but i promise you it is worthwhile to read. it is about the extreme holiness of the blessed virgin mary, and the thoughts and the will of god when making her. It is all recorded in the book which i am reading right now, and which i am totally absorbed in its writings. the book - The Mystical City of God. by Venerable Mary of Agreda Spain. It was written in the early 17th century. It is an account of the life of the Blessed Virgin Mary.

Chapter VI.
The Immaculate Conception

But If you choose not to read it i would just like to share this from that chapter :-

As the opportune and preordained time had arrived, the three divine Persons conferred with each other saying: "Now is the time to begin the work of our pleasure and to call into existence that pure Creature and that soul, which is to find grace in our eyes above all the rest. Let Us furnish Her with richest gifts and let Us deposit in Her the great treasures of our grace. Since all others, whom We called into existence, have turned out ungrateful and rebellious to our wishes, frustrating our intention and impeding by their own fault our purpose, namely, that they conserve themselves in the happy state of their first parents, and since it is not proper, that our will should be entirely frustrated, let Us therefore create this being in entire sanctity and perfection, so that the disorder of the first sin shall have no part in Her.

Let Us create a soul according to our pleasure, a fruit of our attributes, a marvel of our infinite power, without touch or blemish of the sin of Adam. Let Us perfect a work which is the object of our Omnipotence and a pattern of the perfection intended for our children, and the finishing crown of creation. All have sinned in the free will and resolve of the first man (Rom. 5, 12); let Her be the sole creature in whom We restore and execute that which they in their aberration have lost. Let Her be a most special image and likeness of our Divinity and let Her be in our presence for all eternity the culmination of our goodwill and pleasure. In Her We deposit all the prerogatives and graces which in our first and conditional resolve We had destined for the angels and men, if they had remained in their first estate. What they have lost We renew in that Creature and We will add to these gifts many others. Thus our first decree shall not be frustrated, but it shall be fulfilled in a higher manner through this our first and chosen One (Cant. 6, 8). And since We assigned and prepared the most perfect and estimable of our gifts for the creatures who have lost them, We will divert the stream of our bounty to our Well-beloved. We will set Her apart from the ordinary law, by which the rest of the mortals are brought into existence, for in Her the seed of the serpent shall have no part. I will descend from heaven into her womb and in it vest Myself from her substance with human nature."

"It is befitting and due to the infinite goodness of our Divinity, that It be founded and enclosed in the most pure matter, untouched and unstained by fault. Nor is it proper that our equity and providence overlook what is most apt, perfect and holy, and choose that which is inferior, since nothing can resist our will (Esther 13, 9). The Word, which is to become man, being the Redeemer and Teacher of men, must lay the foundation of the most perfect law of grace, and must teach through it, that the father and mother are to be obeyed and honored as the secondary causes of the natural existence of man. The law is first to be fulfilled by the divine Word by honoring Her as his chosen Mother, by exalting Her with a powerful arm, and lavishing upon Her the most admirable, most holy and most excellent of all graces and gifts. Among these shall be that most singular honor and blessing of not subjecting Her to our enemy, nor to his malice; and therefore She shall be free from the death of sin."

"Now the time has arrived," added his Majesty, "which was resolved upon by our Providence for bringing to light the Creature most pleasing and acceptable to our eyes. That Creature, in whom the human nature is freed from its first sin, who is to crush the head of the dragon, who was typified by that singular sign, the Woman that appeared in the heavens in our presence, and who is to clothe the eternal Word with human flesh. The hour is at hand, so blessed for mortals, in which the treasures of our Divinity are to be opened and the gates of heaven to be unlocked. Let the rigor of our justice be softened by the chastisements, which we have until now executed upon the mortals; let the attribute of our mercy become manifest; let the creatures be enriched, and let the divine Word merit for them the treasures of grace and of eternal glory."

The other virtues which adorn and perfect the rational part of the creature, She possessed in a proportion corresponding to the theological virtues. The moral and natural virtues were hers in a miraculous and supernatural measure, and in a still more exalted manner was She possessed of the gifts and fruits of the Holy Ghost in the order of grace. She had an infused knowledge and habit of all these virtues and of all the natural arts, so that She knew and was conversant with the whole natural and supernatural order of things, in accordance with the grandeur of God. Hence from her first instant in the womb of her mother, She was wiser, more prudent, more enlightened, and more capable of comprehending God and all his works, than all the creatures have been or ever will be in eternity, excepting of course her most holy Son.

Words of The Queen

It is an act of justice due to the eternal God that the creature coming to the use of reason, direct its very first movement toward God. By knowing, it should begin to love Him, reverence Him and adore Him as its Creator and only true Lord. The parents are naturally bound to instruct their children from their infancy in this knowledge of God and to direct them with solicitous care, so that they may at once see their ultimate end and seek it in their first acts of the intellect and will. They should with great watchfulness withdraw them from the childishness and puerile trickishness to which depraved nature will incline them if left without direction. If the fathers and mothers would be solicitous to prevent these vanities and perverted habits of their children and would instruct them from their infancy in the knowledge of their God and Creator, then they would afterwards easily accustom them to know and adore Him. My holy mother, who knew not of my wisdom and real condition, was most solicitously beforehand in this matter, for when She bore me in her womb, she adored in my name the Creator and offered worship and thanks for his having created me, beseeching Him to defend me and bring me forth to the light of day from the condition in which I then was. So also parents should pray with fervor to God, that the souls of their children, through his Providence, may obtain Baptism and be freed from the servitude of original sin.

And if the rational creature has not known and adored the Creator from the first dawn of reason, it should do this as soon as it obtains knowledge of the essential God by the light of faith. From that very moment the soul must exert itself never to lose Him from her sight, always fearing Him, loving Him, and reverencing Him.

The Rich Man

2007-03-08T15:10:00.000-04:00

These days, because of the encouragement lent brings to do something good, I Try to read my scripture everyday followed by a meditation of that scripture. For a Time that didnt work because everytime i said that i was going to look for it online, i ended up doing something else. so this is what i did. I know that Presentation Ministries gave very good meditations on the readings for the day so i subscribed to their 'One Bread One Body' email day word. And Today's Reading really caught taught me a lesson. Scripture Reading

I Remember my priest, Fr. Chambers saying that when Jesus gives a parable or a story like the prodigal son, Hidden in the story is Jesus himself or some aspect of Jesus. So when i read this passage, i tried to find Jesus in the story. God our father was Abraham, I found Jesus and he was lazarus, the one who was looked down upon, and we are the rich man who cared little for the lord and are indifferent, irresponsible and selfish. Then I realized how it is quite justified that the unrepentant sinner be happy here while he lives. While his heart remains corrupt. I believe that It is an act of justice on god's part that he is not suffering.

this is the reason - I would like to think that because he is made in god's image and because he is going to lose his soul and experience endless torments because of his errors and self love, that god lets him enjoy himself to the fullest here. After all it is only fair for someone to be happy.

This passage also taught me another lesson about the world we live in. When animals ( dogs, cats etc), our pets, show more sympathy and love for neighbour than another human being for a human being, some thing is totally wrong. and if you look at the world today people give animals almost equivalent rights as humans, when we deny basic human rights to people. This thought disturbs me!

Secondly, There are many people who say "Well if you believe in god, do so and so and then we will believe." I now understand when God said it is a faithless and evil generation that ask for a sign. Cause if they couldn't believe that god created the universe, or in the miracles that jesus performed or the proofs that god exist that people term 'coincidences' then it is pointless to ask god for a miracle when they already decided beforehand against god to not believe.

A Lesson on the job

2007-03-07T14:13:00.000-04:00

I found this site using stumbleupon toolbar. Is a site that allows you to discover the type of person you are and how you experience the holy. give it a try. Spiritual Survey.

Ok that's one thing. the other thing is that i finally addressed a problem which affected me greatly at my job - My Boss's Annoying Radio Station !! Put yourself in my position, 8 hrs a day, 5 days a week you listen to talk radio. Nothing constuctive is talked about, there is confusion everyday and quarrel non stop on the station. The presenters only show the negatives of society and the works of wrong-doers in religion. would this not affect you in anyway when you sit down to work and secondly when you are trying to pursue a peaceful, more perfect interior and exterior life? One dressed with love and compassion, Where you continually search to understand the will of god and purpose in life? It definitely will affect you!

Well i decided to mention it to my boss when yesterday i realized that it was becoming a burden to my conscience, peace of being me, and my confidence in my job duties. I also felt a little bit intimidated because...to even feel afraid to tell your boss that something that they are doing is bothering you is a sign of intimidation. I felt like - "well she could have violated my space by asking me to solve what was bothering her when I enjoy something, why can I do the same?" when I had to wrestle in the night, thinking, how am i to tell my boss that so and so is happening when i am not used to arguments?

Well this is the lesson i learned today. Though you try to be respective of other person's preferences and seek to make others comfortable....1. ignoring a problem will not make it go away, and 2. Serving and Humbling yourself to authority figures doesnt mean that you become a door mat or deny yourself to the extent that it affects the good you want to achieve.

How Much Of Me

2007-03-06T15:04:00.000-04:00

HowManyOfMe.com

There are:
89
people with my name
in the U.S.A.

How many have your name?

Mother Theresa

2007-01-19T11:38:00.000-04:00

You wouldnt believe what great joy i have of sharing to the world mother theresa. I didnt upload these files but i found them on You Tube via Stumbleupon Video. Please do like me and share the message of Christianity that what matters most in this life is not financial Security, Money, Cars, Sex and living a Comfortable life, but a life of love. Of Service. And Prayer. For This is the life Blessed Mother Theresa lived. And She lived it for the love of Christ Jesus! Salus Credentium.

Beginning of Love

Clean Heart

I thirst

God's Love

God's Mercy

God's Presence

Calcutta is Everywhere

Loss of the Presence of God

Non-Smoking ad from Holland

2007-01-11T16:19:00.000-04:00


Guy gets the shock of his life. I think this is yet another example of an excellent anti-smoking ad.

Marian Website

2006-10-25T10:41:00.000-04:00

Well it's been a while since i last blogged but things like this happen. well i found an excellent Marian Site which i have recently been revisiting. Its called Mother of All Peoples and it examins many beliefs about the virgin mary that are held to be true and is absolute truth. While my relationship with mary is excellent and there is no doubt in my mind that she loves me with the very love of god and her maternal love, i decided that maybe you maybe in need of some help? i dont know. but its really really a great site. very good for the intellectuals out there.

I like one particular article - Marian Coredemption in the Light of Saint Therese of Lisieux and the reason being that instead of following the path of learning by reading doctrine, theological books, arguments excetera, it talks about the knowledge of god by experience. hence the reason why i prefer private revelation and writings from the mystic saints. like Therese of Lisieux. Fr. François-Marie Léthel, O.C.D is right to call them authentic "theologians," that is to say "knowers (connaisseurs) of God." check it out.

Missionary Experience

2006-08-19T14:56:00.000-04:00

for this month of august i have not been keepin an updated blog because i am venturing on my first missionary experience in my life. i must confess that i am having a good time seeking out people in the name of our lord. I also learnt alot about myself and some very cool people who i know loves god above all else. The main thing that i must say that strikes me the most is that it is important not to judge people when on mission. I also learn how much each person is valued in the eyes of god. right now i swear i feel like an apostle or a true missionary. there has been so many experiences that have occured that i will remember for the rest of my life.

one such case is with a boy who i coaxed into coming into church named Hjaim(pronounced Hakim). this such case i will remember because of the divine providence at work. everything just fitted in to play, it was like i was meant to meet him and speak with him. what makes him so special is that it so happened that he never went to church in his whole life! he knows about god BUT! when i came up to his house, i came really looking for his friend Terri. well i must say that ortorie is an area that is known for its drugs and lack of god in the residents' lives. I visited terri's how to call him to come to church. it was then that i met Hjaim and Maria. and i brought them back to church.

to hear his story is truely said and i have a deep sympathy for him because he has never been loved, is rejected and there is a deep deep longing for fulfillment. he has been in experiences in his past that is not nice to the god fearing man and i realize now why god what him to come to know him and love him in church.

well in order to get him to come i told him that all he has to say is just one hour. one of our session was a session called original pain therapy dealing with the inner child in you and the pains which we carry, dealing with its origins and stuff. he was very hesitant but he came none the less though we at first sat outside, and ten minutes after we sat inside the little room behind the church in the back.

now imagine a person so totally void of love that they couldnt even imagine good thoughts or playing for the sake of having good fun. so much emptyness and longingness. he couldnt even see a doll symbol as the child in you as himself. My heart was filled with compassion and love for this boy only 16. eventually in the same night we got him to enter into the church through a 2hr long counselling. My divine providence again, the we the church was celebrating the feast of the Assumption, and during the night we were having the 20 decade rosary said with the image of Maria Rosa Mystica. From that night on till this present day he is in church. what really keeps him there really is the presence of the young missionaries (all of them), and expecially the presence of the males enjoying themselves in the lord's presence and doing his work.

so here ends my missionary experience so far. I dont have access to the internet so i dont know when again i will be online to update my blog. Salus Credentium. God Bless you.

Holy Family Message To Visionary

2006-06-27T15:02:00.001-04:00

Hello everyone. Today i was checking the website of my favourite visionary and i decided that i wanted to post a message that i think people should read. I strongly believe that she is credible and she definitely doesn't preach heresy. Her link is in my links section. Here is the message.

22nd May, 2006

This morning, during prayers, I had a vision of the Holy Family of Nazareth.
The Blessed Mother with Baby Jesus in Her arms and St. Joseph. Jesus was clothed in a blue nightgown.

Holy Mary placed Jesus in my arms and said, “We come to you as a Holy Family because you honour us every day so beautifully in your prayers.” The little Infant Jesus was so happy, smiling. I kept hugging Him and He put His little arm around my neck. I had such a joyful and happy feeling.

Blessed Mother then spoke, “We come to you to tell you that people are sinking deeper and deeper into an abyss of sin. No one seems to care much to change. This offends us very much. The way the world leads into terrible destruction.”

As She was speaking St Joseph stood near Her, looking very sad and serious.
Holy Mary said, “I try My best. I was sent into the world to tell people to repent and convert and come back to God, but so little I have achieved. No one seems to take notice of this or to understand that I want good for My children to come closer to My Son. After all it is for their own good and salvation to be saved.”

St Joseph spoke to me, “How many centuries and years have passed by since my chaste and pure spouse was sent to all parts of the world to tell people to convert. She taught them to pray, to convert and to find their way back to God. She led them to church to listen to the word of God, but so little She achieved. People don't want to listen and to change. They like to have a good and comfortable life. Where would that lead you but to self-destruction and a big chastisement which is above you all. “

Most Holy Family of Nazareth, help us to be with you always.
Never lose faith and hope.

So let us honour the holy family and pray to them often for help in our necessaties. They are there to help us to live holy lives and to serve and love god more perfectly. we all have a share in the love and labour of god; therefore they can dispense grace too!

My favourite Sacred Heart Picture

2006-06-23T01:41:00.000-04:00

I Found this picture on the internet-like all my other pictures-some months ago, and I have decided that today being the Feastday of the Sacred Heart of Jesus, I would Share it with the faithful. I regularly use it as my wallpaper. Just venerating this picture or just staring at it unites me with the divine love and mercy....try it! (looks best with a black desktop background colour.)

Salus Credentium!

consecration to mary

2006-06-22T00:15:00.001-04:00

For the past few weeks I have joyfully been praising and living in the sacred hearts of jesus and mary. I have been witnessing to the love and compassion which is to be found in these two hearts, especially in the immaculate heart of mary our mother. how you say? by totally consecrating myself, offering my life, joys, suffering and my own will for the accomplishing of our mother's will for our lives- namely, to mould us, to be perfect and worthy in the sight of god.

It is an indescribeable feeling of motherly love which is to be experienced in this heart of mary. Knowing that it was Jesus who gave us his own mother, who he placed all his trust and hope and love in on earth, that he himself would give us this same mother to be our mother. For who knows the Heart of Jesus better than the Heart of Mary. As scripture says "she pondered all these things in her heart."

I choose to follow mary more deeply, only to more perfectly follow christ! She who exclaimed "I am the handmaid of the lord, be it done unto me according to thy word" will surely form me to exclaim that same profession of faith in god our father. Mary our mother' every thought is bent on pleasing god! she then being the most perfect of all creatures and queen of heaven wants to accomplish the work of god, jesus her son in our lives and in the world. This is why jesus, in his final moments of life on earth, in the climax of his suffering, vouchsafe to give us his own mother to be mother of all peoples so that she can achieve and perfect in us to divine will of god. So that Mary our mother, Mother of the Church, May teach and prune us. Mary is a mother in the FULLEST SENSE of the word!

So what have influenced me to such devotion and love of virgin mary? These books. I highly recommend them. Firstly, It was 'The Dolorous Passion Of Our Lord Jesus Christ', then 'To The Priests, Our Lady's Beloved Sons', and Finally, the book i am now reading together with the one i just stated, 'The Mystical City Of God' from the second to last book, I would like to quote something i find so profound that i think every christian, furthermore every catholic should know and praise god. For what a most Loving mother we have in heaven.

From to the priest our lady's Beloved son's. these are revelations to Fr. Stefano Gobbi from the Virgin mary -

I WANT TO SAVE THEM

"You are now having a time of quiet and i invite you to enter into the intimacy of my immaculate heart to see what an abyss of love and of sorrow it contains. my heart is the heart of a mother, a real living heart of a mother who is real and living for all her children.

All men redeemed by my son are also my children; they are my children in the fullest sense of the word. even those who are far away, even the sinners, even the atheists, even those who reject god,those who fight against him and hate him: they are all my children. And i am a mother to them. for many of them i am the only mother they have, the only person who is taking care of them, who truly loves them. and so my heart is continually consumed with sorrow and with a greater love for these children of mine. I want to help them, i want to save them because i am their mother. Because of this i suffer for them, I suffer for their sins, I suffer because they are so far from god, I suffer because they do wrong, I suffer because of all the harm they are doing to themselves.

but how to help them? how to save them? I have need of much preayer, i have need of much suffering. only though the prayer and the suffering of my other good and generous children, will i be able to save these children of mine. And so there is then the movement of my priests. it is desired by me to make reparation for the immense harm caused in souls by atheism, to restore in so many desecrated hearts the image of god, the merciful coutenance of my son jesus."

Saint Therese of lisieux

2006-06-11T01:40:00.000-04:00

I was so happy when i found this picture. It is a picture of the incorrupt body of 'the little flower' Saint Therese of lisieux.

Da Vinci Code - False

2006-06-07T03:14:00.000-04:00

In defence of the catholic church on the subject of the Da Vinci Code and its horrendous errors I offer this link

For those of you that won't read all, it just goes not to prove that this move is PURELY FICTION and Anti-Christian, Anti-Catholic. "These titles represent works of New Age speculation that run counter to established history, focus on alleged secret societies and conspiracy theories, attempt to reinterpret the Christian faith, and are imbued with radical feminist agendas. Historians and religious scholars do not take these works seriously."

Can you imagine that Dan Brown's Sources were accused of fraud and embezzlement. They were New Age Followers following new age spirituality! (Anti-Christ, Anti-Christian) I have never read nor seen the movie and i dont intend too for the sake of jesus's holiness. some lies which people believe are like that regarding the priory of sion. this was founded in 1956 in france and was named after the mountain which it was on "Col du Mont Sion". it had nothing to do with the crusades. His sources are well known to be fraudulent works. Dont you see that his words try to undermine the authenticity of the bible, the word of god? that is exactly the plan of the devil!

It is just so much non-sense that is worth nothing not knowing. fiction. In my eyes dan brown wants to make some money and in what better way than to feed "the public's taste for conspiracy and anti-catholic passions" and in what better way than to attack the catholic church who is always protrayed in the bias media as evil and unrealistic. If you only knew the good things that the media is purposely leaving out that the catholic church is doing and living. It is truly a great act of the devil.

Never the less no matter what the devil does, and how much people he would fool through this movie. "The gates of Hell Shall not prevail" against the Church (the bride of christ) that is historically recorded that Saint Peter the Apostle of Jesus Founded. And to no other church is god more present than in the Catholic Church. Everything else is a lie and dont you dare believe it! Do your research!

If people say the catholic church do so and so, find out if it is true from a catholic source and the reason for it.

the Source i use often is a catholic encyclopedia that is much older than nearly all the encyclopedias around copyright 1910. Its been around for a very long time. newadvent.org

'Behold The Man'

2006-06-05T19:07:00.000-04:00

When I saw this picture, I was ashamed and uncomfortable. How could people portray jesus in such a rude manner! The first time I saw this picture was on a vocations retreat in point fortin, from a video on the theology of the body lectured by christopher west. when I watched this video, I started to see this picture in a different light. not through the light of this sex crazy world but in the light of the person of christ, more specifically, his masculinity.

This picture is exactly what is needed to reawaken that lost sense of manhood, correct that false definition of man and his role, and see jesus and the unblemished model of man. these days people say all sorts of things about jesus, they even paint him as a woman, but this picture is truly beautiful and true! Have you ever wondered why god created both man and woman and not just man? or why did god had to become a man rather than a woman to redeem us?

This video by christopher west answers all of these questions, and offers us something to think about. it is particularly what i like to call a man's movie, and i highly recommend it.

What touched me deeply is how much we are truly in the image and likeness of our god! i just love my manhood and myself because of the love jesus has shown us. It also affect a deep love for the virgin mary and her work in the redemptive plan of god for mankind. for those of us that are insecure and uncertain in their masculinity as myself, I again recommend this video. It helped me and i know it would help you.

I now see jesus to be my model for a man and masculinity. I say that John Paul II truly understood the meaning of this theology of the body, and what st. Augustine would call, 'the Whole Christ' or the scriptures where it is written 'Behold the Man'

warnings from god.

2006-05-29T01:22:00.001-04:00

In wake of recent events such as the various earthquakes in the pacific region, i again plead for people to take seriously these warning from the not yet approved catholic visionary in Sydney Australia. she is awaiting the bishop's letter, i dont know if she got is already but i dont want to wait until. i find her genuine as far as my faith and knowledge of god and the church goes, and that she is genuine to believe. her messages from god has helped me personally to grow in the faith and love of god, the church with the communion of saints. her messages have also paralleled other messages from various approved apparations and those yet to be approved and under scrutiny.

Even if youre not catholic and decided to drop by, take a look and at least say a prayer for yourself and someone you love even if you dont believe in god, religion or anything at all. please dont just say yea right sucker or narrow minded kid to believe in god! if you do pray, and call god by no name other than Father, then you wont have anything to lose. just do it for heaven's sake! and help yourself and those in need. may God Bless you. Salus Credentium!

By the way, this blog is also my blog. I just use Salus Credentium more frequently. and the link to the visionary's website is in the links column.

hibiscus

2006-05-26T09:50:00.000-04:00

i find this picture of a hibiscus is very pretty. it is very common in my homeland and i wanted to share it.

school

2006-05-25T23:30:00.000-04:00

these days i have not been faithful to this blogging thing because it is just too much work to do. imagine that these lecturers of mine give us 6 projects. out of those 6 four was very time consuming. boy. is pressure yes. but for the past two days i on a break. need time for myself. you see tomorrow and the weekend. is real work. but the strange this is that i am not worried. i think is because i believe in god and that i would make it though the work. after all i have been making it through for the past few days. why not now? but sometimes i doubt the work of god....but then i tell myself. my god is bigger than that. not saying that i must wait till last minute to do my work but trust in god. the bottom line.

your friends and yourself

2006-05-14T00:49:00.000-04:00

today i was supposed to do some school work but i didnt. instead i played the fool. i realize that i need to prioritize things in my life because it would not be good for me if i continue living this way. i just came back from a party, what we in trinidad and tobago would call a 'lime' with some friend that are dear to me. but do you ever had the feeling like..ok, these people are my friends but they dont appriciate me. and with this feeling now, you will always not be your 'comfortable' or 'rest easy self.' ....i have come to realize that to love people in the true light of a christian, you just have to bear hurts. i have two such friends and i dont like when every time they would always like to have the 'last say' or be the ones to set the standards. well im like that in a sense. but i guess the difference is that i hold back and take silently the unwilling scorns or the unnoticable damage that friends can cause with an unconscience word or action to another.

I have 3 friends that i would willingly die for and am totally comfortable being around. i dont have the fear of watching over my back or tracing my steps. out of those three i know 1 will do anything in his power to help me out and will put his head on a block for me as well. as for the other too, they may have to think about it.

the thought that engulfs my mind day and night is how am i to be a man? and not just a man but a man of god? i mean, there is almost no good model of a man i can say i can strive to be like other than those of the past like jesus and st. francis or so. but for those that are alive in this world, it is very difficult to find a model among them. and with this question in my mind day and night, it is beginning to take a toll, in such a degree that i dont know if i am acting normal or i am afraid of betraying my masculinity. i guess these are questions we men must all try to answer in this life.

funny

2006-05-09T02:00:00.000-04:00

I was surfing the web, one of my favourite hobbies. this time i didnt use stumbleupon (the best surfing toolbar) but i used google and was searching for funny videos; and i came across this cool video. it real nice. recommended for broadband users. check it out. laughter is good. :) got it from a website called waiterrant.net

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-6739710473912337648&q=chinese&pr=goog-sl

how ignorant am i

2006-05-06T04:18:00.000-04:00

today i just realized how internet illiterate i was. i though i knew enough but there is more to be learned. thank good for sites like howstuffworks.com, to help ppl like me. sometimes i fell real embarrassed because i think that i should have know what i didn't know example how to deal with templates and getting screenshots. come on?, i think people my age know how to customize thier webpages...but i think time will teach me, thats just the cons i would say of living in a third world country and not being to literate about software and the internet....if you got any ideas or any great sites, leave a comment.

May - the month of Mary, Five First Saturdays Devotion

2006-05-02T21:50:00.000-04:00

For all who don't know, May is the month of Mary, meaning that in gratitude for the role the Virgin Mary played in the salvation of mankind, we dedicate this month to honour her. there are many devouting to her asking for help from her as like a son asking a mother for help, making reparation for the offences against her immaculate heart and thanksgiving to her for above mentioned....

I am quite happy that i remembered this yesterday, and today i decided that i would do the first five saturdays devoution to her. Since Mid-April I have been burdened by school work. honestly speaking, I would rather have exams than projects.....thats because its like I never leave school. This has been going on for quite some time. But as my blog name suggest there is always Salus Credentium (Salvation of Believers). I am hoping that because of this month of May, stress will be minimal with this school work.....thank god this is my last semester...and what a happy end it would be.

If you are Catholic Christain like me or Eastern Orthodox Christian, don't be surprised if you get into alot of arguments over Mary our Mother this month....after all, the devil is a busy man.....and to honour mary is to call down the justice of god towards the devil and evil doers. As genesis says...."I will put ememity between your seed and her seed, She shall crush your head, and you shall bruise her heel!" - genesis 3:15 ..... I know some bible say He and it as well, but as Saint Jerome clarifies this in the early christian centries. the MORE correct interpretation is She and not He. See (best sites in order) here, here or here

three great links!

2006-04-29T16:31:00.000-04:00

I was just going through some of my bookmarks and i decided to share three of the good stuffs I keep here...hope you enjoy

These first two are to beautifully done way of the cross meditations:

way of the cross 1
way of the cross 2

this one is an interesting site i came across its allows you to write messages to your future self..futureme....cool isn't it?

My Feast Of Divine Mercy

2006-04-24T14:55:00.001-04:00

Mercy Sunday is a day that I will always observe. It is the day that Jesus Christ, through his divine mercy, opens the gates of heaven to all those who would on this day, adore and implore his divine mercy. Yesterday was that great feast day and I spent the day in feverent prayer, veneration of the divine mercy picture, thanksgiving to god, imploring his mercy for myself and for others. I went to mass thrice and prayed for so many people and so many things that I don't know if I left out anything still to be prayed for. I hope that people benefited from this day of grace and mercy abounding.

The feast was instituted by Saint Faustina, who through the request of our lord, established the feast for all mankind for benefit. Not just Roman Catholics. What intensified the experience for me even more was I was on a caramelite retreat in the mountains in a Benedictine monastery in my country. It has a fantatic view of the towns below and forest. And even more it is extremely quiet. What helped me the most was meditating on the passion of our lord to get deeper into the mystery of god's act of divine mercy. What I used was the diary of St. Faustina and I read from the book the Dolorous Passion Of Our Lord Jesus Christ, written by another saint.

This day is really for sinners and I am a big one of those. Trust me. This is what Jesus promised- "let the greatest sinners place their trust in my mercy. They have the right before others to trust in the abyss of my mercy. My daughter, write about my mercy towards tormented souls. souls that make an appeal to my mercy delight me. To such souls I grant even more graces than they ask. I cannot punish even the greatest sinner if he makes an appeal to my compassion, but on the contrary,I justify him in my unfathomable and inscrutable mercy. Write: before I come as a just judge, I first open wide the door of my mercy. He who refuses to pass through the door of my mercy must pass through the door of my justice." this is why I needed to recognize this day.

As I close let me just type out the promise of Jesus Christ to those who adore his mercy on the feast of divine mercy from the diary of blessed Faustina.

"My daughter, tell the whole world about my inconceivable mercy. I desire that the feast of mercy be a refuge and shelter for all souls, and especially for poor sinners. On that day the very depths of my tender mercy are open. I pour out a whole ocean of graces upon those souls who approach the fount of my mercy. The soul that will go to confession and receive holy communion shall obtain complete forgiveness of sins and punishment. On that day all the divine floodgates through which grace flow are opened. Let no soul fear to draw near to me, even though its sins be as scarlet. My mercy is so great that no mind, be it of man or angel, will be able to fathom it throughout all eternity. Every thing that exists has come forth from the very depths of my most tender mercy. Every soul in relation to me will contemplate my love and mercy throughout eternity. The feast of mercy emerged from my very depths of tenderness. It is my desire that it be solemnly celebrated on the first Sunday after Easter. Mankind will not have peace until it turns to the fount of my mercy."

So mark that date on your calendar, phone, email address etc. to remember and don't forget to say thankyou for mercy shown.

Simplicity and Truth

2006-04-20T16:33:00.000-04:00

What really matters in life is really those things that are simple and whose contribution would be seen as insignificant. Everyday people say they are waiting for something big to happen and usually that normally doesn't happen. The further irony is that when it does happen they are not totally happy. I think that inorder for people to be happy, they must start taking the advice of elders. Those elders who are respectable and righteous in the eyes of god and society when they say being rich doesn't mean being happy, or having much doesn't mean happiness. A past living example of this would be the life of Mother Theresa and St. Therese of Lisieux. Have you ever read their autobiographies? Awesome!

I have come to learn that the teachings of the past are most needed in today's self-centered worldly society; where relativism abounds and is constantly leading persons into the darkness. Hiding truth from falsehood. Imagine that today's global culture even rejects the existence of god? I personally cannot see how agnostics and all other persons in that category can reconcile their opinion of truth from what IS true. It seems that these days people are always trying to change the truth, twist it up, and reinvent it. For what purpose? Namely to justify a wrong by denying faith a voice, and using logic and reasoning soley to come to absurd conclusions. And for pride and recognization

An example of this would be is there a soul? Logically and reasonably in the eyes of faith (and sometimes without faith) there is such a thing. But in the eyes of logical alone, seeing that there is no material proof of its existence, people say there is no such a thing.

So now what are we to believe? Deny our own experiences (which is not material proof) of the soul and believe by reason alone? Or instead take into mind our own experiences and religious truths (faith) in assesting what is truth from what is false. Then here we come to another problem. Would secular society accept that there is a god? Of course not so that society would always leave out religious truths in detemining truth, just not to cause any kind of confusion among worldly friends.

I have come to test (through experiences) the authenicity of religious truths about god, man and other thinks like morals, and have also come to the conclusion that they are always right and they should be followed and listened to; but today's society teaches that to be obedient is to be a slave and to be conditioned to believe. But I say that a bad thing? Being a slave to wisdom and being conditioned to good things practices? To me those are the thins that brings joy to mind, body and soul. So in other words, its worth it.

Truth is this, to know god and Jesus Christ the one whom he has sent. This takes into account the testimony of faith and reasoning. One complements the other.