It's hard living in fear of the future. That's what I've been doing for the past 3 years with increasing intensity. Most times I feel as if I'm at the point where life says "ha! I've beaten you." And this coming for a guy that's 23. Sigh. The bright side of this is the fact that there's probably 1 billion people I'm better off than, and, i should stop complaining and do something worthwhile with my life. Poverty is not an option when there's so much opportunities for self growth and advancement. The main disappointment and obstacle I'd say would be our poor choices and indisciplined behaviour. I mean, it's really the small things that matter, like saying thank you, getting up early, remembering a birthday, a genuine smile. And though I and many people know that consciously, well fail at even that. Such a simple thing to do that seems undo-able.
The key I think is to be motivated, disciplined and prayerful. And that at times that is a task in itself. But, we can't avoid working out our own salvation/happiness, whatever you call it without doing some strenuous work either in the interior or exterior man.