Thursday, November 06, 2008

The Beginning of Sorrows - Mercy gives way to Divine Justice

"I am the light of the world. Anyone who follows me will not walk in darkness" says the Lord Jesus.

God speaks to us even in our time. We who follow Jesus know his voice. If you're a practicing catholic, you should know this as a fact for there are many examples of saints and their prophecies, historical events, which prove this fact as truth. Valentina-Papagna is one of these persons whom god chose to be the eyes of the church. She is a CHURCH APPROVED visionary from Australia and she has posted online, the latest messages she has received from heaven. She is 100% Credible and Catholic, and I have been reading, listening, living, and scrutinizing her messages and the requests she have received from Heaven since 2003. Trust me when I say she is for real. There are few things i would put my life on, and this woman's credibility is one of them.

Some of the messages she received has already come to past for example the 2004 Tsunami. This message, the latest was quite disturbing for me, so i post it in order to spread the message, to make people aware of god's will for us in our present time, and for people to be prepared; to repent, to convert their hearts and to rejoice for Jesus is coming soon. The beginning of sorrows has begun. Wicked mankind will now suffer and do penance for abandoning the ways of god and his church for his own good. God's kingdom is coming on earth as it is in heaven. The restoration of the world is nearer than we think. Jesus is closer than we think.

Please read and visit her website to test for yourself her credibility through her messages and be convinced of Jesus's presence in the world because of her.

Valentina's website:

24th September 2008

Today, I had a vision of Mary Most Holy. In Her holy hands She held some messages and She was looking at them.

She said, "My daughter, I came to tell you not good news. The graces from heaven were given to change and convert and to come back to God for many years".

"From early times, La Salette, Lourdes, Fatima and many other places, the world refused to accept them, but now the graces have been drawn back to Heaven and they will not come back. "She said sadly.

She added, "How proud and stubborn this humankind are in their hearts, not to change for better, they prefer to live in sin and their own comfort. Now the prophecies will start to unfold which were held back for this reason of conversion".

I said, "I am very sorry to hear this sad news." It was a shock for me to hear this. We both cried together.

The Blessed and Beautiful mother said, "I know you all suffer and struggle, but have faith in Me and My Son, Jesus. We will never abandon you. Pray the Rosary and Litany of Loreto every day. That pleases Jesus and Me very much."

I then said, "Are these messages You hold in Your Holy Hands just for me?" She smiled and said, "No, they are for everybody." I said, "I love you, Mother, pray for us all."

28th September 2008

The Angel came to me when I prayed. He said, "Come with me, I will show you what will happen soon."

The vision was so real. I saw a row of high rise buildings, very near a beach. The water was coming up, close to the buildings and gradually rising and touching the units. The Angel explained to me, this city and others everywhere have strong protection like fortresses, built like a fence from God to protect them, now the gates have been lifted up and the seawater will rise and hit directly these places very soon. In these places people sin and offend God too much."

I said, "is there any way to warn the people to do something before it is too late?"

The Angel said, "You can tell people to pray, but not many will listen".

The vision was very scary. I could see the water rise in these parts like dark streams. The people were inside eating and drinking and talking, unaware of what was happening.

"This place seemed familiar to me, " I said to the Angel, "but I have never been there. Maybe I saw it on television". The Angel smiled and said "Let it be God’s will, not yours. You can’t stop it".

12th October 2008

St. Margaret Mary Church

Priest was discussing the recession, when Jesus appeared to me and said, "Yes, My child, soon the world will fall on its knees. The many troubles that are upon you all will reduce humanity to humility and will loose their pride and search for God".

"People will have to go through much endurance and will learn to become more spiritual for the world is too materialistic to understand God’s love".

17th October 2008

at night, I was saying my thanksgiving prayer when our Lord Jesus came and said. "Peace be with you, My child. I know you all are concerned for the economic collapse. Little by little they are falling into recession and big financial disaster. I can only tell you, you will go through very hard times ahead. It will not get better soon, but will only get worse. The world is affected by greedy and wealthy men. They make believe there is no money, but this is all planned by evil men".

"My children, it is not only the third world that will suffer hunger but also wealthy nations. It will spread everywhere. I feel sad for My people but this was foretold long ago. Humanity didn’t accept My prophecy which I spoke through My little simple children. People ridicule them and speak falsely about them.

BE not afraid, Speak My Word. Woe to those who condemn. I shall judge severely those who ignore My Holy Word."

"Valentina, with all these troubles which are upon you all, you have Me. When you are with Me, you have nothing to worry".

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

The Disturbance

Something has happened

I don't know what, but I can only anticipate. There is a sense that all which is unfolding in my life now is a metamorphosis for a new experience. Mapping myself through experience gained from being under the divine providence of god, his influence, and my walking with god in the past, I can tell that something is coming, changing, which can only be for the better. It is he behind all the signs which engage me to take notice. To be ready. To prepare. To decide.

It is as if the spirit of god is saying - "AWAKE from your slumber! ARISE from your sleep. Come now and venture forth! Taste and see that I am good!"

This disturbance, these signs, these developments, they all leave me in silence to mull over.
Something is happening . . . . . I can sense it.

The Quiet Ones

Why is it always the good and quiet ones which are the worst ones out there? And why is that statement almost always true? (for me at least). Doesn't anyone realize that people who smile the most have the most problems? Why is it always the nicest people who turn deadly?

Compare that reality to the reality of a serial killer. He's just going there taking people's lives out of hate for people and the world. Sometimes showing no emotion what so ever. Very heartlessly! What would cause some people to reach that point of insanity?

Obviously, their needs for love and appreciation was not met. Or is it that they were abused? Or used too many times by too many people? Or had a negative self image about themselves created because of hearing people's degradatory comments and opinions made about them, marrying what they know as their own imperfections, therefore confirming their negative self image as true. Can it also be that they couldn't fend for themselves, had problems saying no, neglected their welfare for the welfare of others? Is it that they lost all hope that change for themselves, people or the world was possible?

These quiet people would have in some way tired to help themselves to deal with their situation, but after many failed attempts, they just couldn't cope with it anymore in a reasonable manner. They would fall from grace and then now feel the need to vent violently, drink excessively, do drugs, have rampant sex, curse habitually etcetera.

All the good which they would have held highly of and practiced would have been overpowered by their need for freedom from these their problems. There need for love and appreciation would drive them all into madness. As the Joker said - "Madness is like gravity. All it needs is a little push"

Every human being has his/her limit. Please, remember this and show love and appreciation in every way possible to ease their own pains and turmoil in life.

Friday, October 03, 2008

Hope Is

Raging and blazing anger are the emotions I feel. the devil tricked me. There was always more, but he covered my eyes.

Liar!....... Liar, Liar, Liar!!! How DARE YOU! You Sicken Me!

You Poison me with your suggestions and confounded thoughts. HOW DARE YOU! Do you hate me this much as to endanger my life? HOW DARE YOU! HOW DARE YOU!

Trusting revelation, I walked along the directed path. The path became coarse and I was drained inwardly. I saw you and you tempted me to indulge myself with your fruit. I resisted at first, then my thirst gave way and I succumbed to your enticements, tantalizing my senses. You said it would make life easier, I stopped journeying. I took. Then in my moment of sweet intoxication, you forged a chain around my hands and feet, restricting my walking and rising. You advantaged me. I could not move.

I became fearful. I lamented my distress. You stood there laughing maliciously. "Alas, I've hindered him, pulled him down into the dust! Just look at him" you said, "Like something less than human" You offered another quench thinking I was stupid to accept your help again. It was your help that caused me pains and sorrows.

I thought to myself - Isn't the life of man upon earth a warfare? and his days like the days of a hireling? Tears rolled down mixing with the dust. Why did I succumb, falling deep into distress. Inwardly if cried outward. Please Help Me! You whose path I first trusted. Pick me up, dust me off and truly quench my thirst!

Then I felt myself rising and positioned to stand. My clothes gently dusted and water touch my lips. "Behold, I make all things new. See? I give you living water restoring your life. Drink and never be thirsty again! I drank and was alleviated. He said "Ecce Homo. Go now, stray no more, bear up yourself and follow the path towards the golden gate. I ardently long to be with you. Come and continue through."

I turned to my distractor - You Liar! You Fibber! This is what you wanted not for me - To be alive and totally free. To know myself and my inheritance; and him who loves me. To reach the end where justice and tranquility be. You covered my eyes and tied my limbs, Oh what trouble you chained me in. To taste your fruit is to taste slavery. Never Again will I listen to thee. Look, the one who made me, helps me. He can't wait to be free with me. Right here is not all all, there, over there, there is still more. Till now, I am not at my last end. There is hope. All was not lost. This is not my last end. I will journey through.

Thursday, October 02, 2008

Our *Deepest Fear* is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves...Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,talented, fabulous? Actually...Who are you not to be?

You are a child of God. *Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you* We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people *Permission* to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Go for it! Live Your Dream! Overcome your deepest fear today!
Lighting 1000 Dreams by the Day!

C.F. Jackson
Won't Be Denied!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

On Being Human

What makes people, people?

In this world in which people behave like animals and they themself degrade themselves, I ask, what makes us human? What identifies us? Is it our bodies? We are different from all of creation, similar only to the apes; similar but not the same. Our bodies are unique. But I do not think this is what defines us. Is it our intellect or our ability to reason? I think not; for it is because of our inability to do this correctly, which produced these inhumane mentalities and behavioural patterns in people, which society breed within themselves, towards each other, and towards nature.

Is it our capacity to love? But doesn't all creatures experience love just as they do fear? That is not a complete answer to the question. I believe that this is crucial to our identity but doesn't define us completely as a person or human being. There must be more!

What is it, I ask myself, which raises man above creation, making him unequal to those others, which distinguishes himself from the rest? In all our known history and from the many experiences of historical persons, I can only come to one conclusion - IT IS GOD. It is god that gives us our identity, raises us beyond our limits, gives us true self knowledge and even transfigures us to be more than human. Only Jesus Christ makes this possible, as he is THE perfect example of the perfect human being. The perfect man, without flaw of body, logic, love, and our true identity. God by himself answered for us our deepest questions for meaning, purpose and definition in Jesus Christ. It came straight from the mouth of the It came straight from the mouth of the apostle inspired by God the Holy Spirit preaching incarnate word -

"You are from God, little children, and have overcome them; because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world." 1 John 4:4 This is what makes us different. What defines us. Yes. Faith in god defines us. We come from god as his "offspring". We can perceive god. The knowledge of the mysteries of god, this is what makes us human; set apart from the rest. We are like god because we are his children. We see for ourselves all we that we can be because we saw his Transfiguration. Yes. That hope which is left for us is unmistakably true. This is what being human is - being like Jesus, that is, like God.

For God Said - "Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness;...... God created man in His own image."

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Dying And Rising With Christ - St Leo the Great's Sermon (AD 400-461)

Christ came to bring us the help which only he could give. In his divinity he was immune to suffering; consequently, once he had assumed our fragile humanity, death could have no permanent hold on him. His immortal nature possessed the power to raise his dead body to life again.

We must cleave to this mystery always, striving with supreme effort of mind and body to be conformed to it. Although failure to observe the pascal solemnity would be very grave offense, it would be still more dangerous to take part in the liturgy without sharing in our Lord's passion. The Apostle's saying is true: If we suffer with him, we shall also reign with him.

We can give authentic worship to the suffering, dead, and risen Christ only if we ourselves suffer, die, and rise again with him. This sharing in Christ's Death and Resurrection begins for all the children of the Church at Baptism, in which sin is destroyed and thy are born to new life, the triple immersion in the water representing the Lord's three days sojourn in the grave. Their funeral pile, so to speak, is brought tumbling down, they enter the font in their old, sin-stained condition, to be brought forth new by the baptismal waters.

What has been effected sacramentally, however, must still be carried out in their daily lives. As long as thy are in this mortal body, those who are born of the Spirit must take up their cross.

So then, if anyone feels himself overstepping the bounds of Christian discipline and his desires drawing him away from the straight path, let him take refuge in the Lord's cross and nail his sinful passions to the tree of life. Let him cry to the Lord in the prophet's words: Pierce my flesh with the nails of your fear, I tremble at your judgements.

To pierce one's flesh with the nail of God's fear is to let the dread of divine judgment curb one's senses from unlawful desires. The person who thus resists temptation and mortifies his concupiscence to prevent it leading him into deadly sin will then be free to say with the Apostle: Far be it from me to boast of anything except the cross of Jesus Christ, through whom the world is crucified to me, and I the world.

Christ has lifted us up with himself on the cross; there let Christians take their stand. They know it is the place where their human nature was redeemed, and all their steps should be directed toward it. For the Lord's passion is prolonged until the end of the world. Just as it is he whom we honour and love in the saints, he whom we feed and clothe in the poor, so too is is he who suffers in all who endure adversity for the sake of what is right; unless, indeed, we are to imagine that, now that the faith has spread thorough out the world and the number of unbelievers has decreased, all persecution has come to an end together with every conflict which ever raged against the blessed martyrs- as if the bearing of the cross were reserved only for those who had to suffer atrocious torments for the love of Christ.

And so those wise souls who have learned to fear and love the one and only Lord and to hope in him alone mortify their passions and crucify their bodily senses, refusing either to fear their foes or to serve them. They prefer the will of God to their own lives, and insofar as they renounce love of self for love of God they love themselves all the more truly.

By such members of Christ's body as these the holy feast of Easter is authentically celebrated, and they will lack none of those victories which our Saviour's passion has won.

-- St Leo the Great (circa 400-461) was elected pope in 440. One hundred and forty-three of his letters and 96 sermons have survived.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

My Battle Between Love and Fear

What an upheaval it has been for me, within me! For since by birthday, the highpoint and beginnings of my signs of change so far, my body and soul has been thirsty for the living water that never leaves us thirsty again. The tumulus battle between Love and Fear wages within me causing an instability of the equilibrium of peace within me. The inner man bears his cross; my mind weighted by thoughts of my human capacities and ideals, because my body and soul craves for a new experience of god. The realm of Christian mysticism experienced by so many Saints (Theresa of Avila, Faustina, Padre Pio) but till now, unknown to me.

The three spheres of conflict stemming from this battle between Love and Fear are in essence- Faith Hope and Love; Wisdom Knowledge and Understanding (of god and self); and living the Way, the Truth, and the Life of Christ. They are all interconnected. If I say I LOVE god, then I should trust him? If my faith is living, then I should have no fear of living the gospel to the letter? Right? This challenge of faith initiated out of love for god caused all of this.

For Lent, I have decided to undertake the difficult task of disciplining and conquering myself for 40 days, in preparation for a future career, and also to know the will of god and understand myself. Alas for me, that I should be a burden unto myself! To deny the flesh, and honour my simple lenten commitments made out of my free will to imitate Christ and his virtues is a very difficult and challenging! I think also that at the age of 21, people want to start building on the foundation blocks laid over the years, so this is the time of "shaping up" for me!

The person who truly knows himself would recognize how frail human nature is. God I know, trusting in the experience of other saints, is using this confusion of mine to merit a humble heart, yet, it seems contrary to me and is very painful to bear. Knowing your weaknesses, poverty, and limitations causes in me an anxiety and fear, yet it is pruning my faith in the hidden and unseen god to trust in divine providence for even greater things. I share this perspective with all so they they too who are in a similar situation as myself, may know two things. That you're not the only one out there who questions faith, love, and life, and two, that all things god uses for the good of those who love him.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

My Birthday Miracle - Heaven answers prayers!

I fulfilled 21 years of age on February 18th. To celebrate such a significant age for me, I took four days to honour it, which began on the 16th to the 19th. On those four days, something special happened.

First of all, I witnessed a miracle. For the whole day and afternoon of Saturday 16th, it was raining and the whole sky was covered with grey clouds. That was the day of my second birthday party after 16 years. I grew concerned because I didn't have tents to hold the 50-60 persons that would arrive in 1 1/2 hours time (8pm). I began to pray. I took out my rosary and reminded Virgin Mary of her promise to those who pray her rosary, and I trusted her to answer my petitions favorably . The promise was this - "You shall obtain all you ask of me by the recitation of the rosary." I also prayed the Chaplet of Divine Mercy. Those two prayers I trusted god to respond to, because of some past, distressing experiences in my life where these prayers proved itself useful. I prayed to see my stars and heaven responded.

Those threatening clouds which showed no sign of removing itself, slowly dissipated. First I saw one star, it was my sign of hope. Then when I went to the back of my apartment, I saw the moon. I rejoiced greatly. For the whole time of the party from 8pm till 2am not a drop of rain. It was my special miracle. I even counted 20 stars. Maybe I missed one. lol. Our Lady held up the rain! Now I know I can trust Our Lady for anything; especially now that in my life, a blanket of fear, caused by a wrestle with love, has rested on me. Growing in faith is a challenge!

The second special thing was, that god was answering my prayer for change. That has been my prayer since the beginning of Christmas. For this lent, and my birthday, I think he is seeing my efforts and is pleased so is acting in response. Again he is using Virgin Mary to wean me into true faith, hope and love. On the 27th I will be doing a 33 day consecration preparation to the Immaculate Heart. I am eagerly awaiting it because for it to come in such opportune timing, it must be from god.

Friday, February 08, 2008

Happy Lent

Happy Lent to everybody, I hope that it will indeed be a grace filled one. Already I am feeling the presures of maintaining a life of pray and discipline. I pray that to have the fruit of the fifth sorrowful mystery of the rosary - Final perseverance (i.e. to lent's end). Detaching myself from the comforts of material things, human affections particularly, and not complaining but submitting to humility is hard. Countering my pride is a struggle but praise be to god for grace and my desire of conforming my will to his will.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

The State of the World

I am becoming very conscious of the state of the world these days. Since the beginning of advent, my spirit was troubled and I didn't know why. I recognized it as a type of fear, and since it was manifesting itself through my body by a spontaneous jerk, I wanted to discover the root of it. Early this January I identified it to a fear for my survival. It was of course significant for me. I began to react to this fear by pursuing a healthy physical and spiritual lifestyle. I went to the gym, I began to weigh my needs and wants, my spending power, my emotional and intellectual states, and what is important to me that's not necessarily tangible . I started to pursue a life of discipline in a small degree.

Then I came to another realization. The frank possibility of a world crisis about to begin this year. Judging mainly by the political tension in the middle east, the new age movement and the coming age of Aquarius, the economic crisis in America, Global warming and climate change, depletion of natural resources especially crude oil, the mid-completion of a one world government and ethical system, and especially Catholic Christian church approved prophecy. I think we are on the brink of a world war crisis. This is probably why my spirit has been bothered because my family and I are not prepared for a crisis be it shortage of food, water etc.

Very soon I will be calling a family meeting and also I have plans to speak with my church leaders so that the church may be prepared. It these are indeed sign from god, I believe that I should act upon it though I may be considered a fool or a hysteric. I think we better be safe and prepared than not. I share this with you so that you too may stock up on food and essentials for life than waste money on comforts.

Monday, January 21, 2008

Imitation Of Christ - On Compunction of Heart

The Imitation Of Christ

Book 1: Admissions For A Spiritual Life

Chapter 21
On Compunction Of Heart

If You want to make progress, keep your soul in the fear of God and never wish to be completely free. Discipline your senses and never indulge in hilarity.
Have sorrow for your sins and you will find interior peace. Repentance opens the way to many blessings, which dissipation soon destroys. It is a wonder that any of us can be wholly contented in this life when we think of our exile from God and of the daily dangers our soul faces. But because of frivolity and the negligence of our defects we are unaware of the misery of our own soul. Often we laugh when we ought to weep, for there is no perfect freedom nor real joy except in the fear of God and in a good conscience.

Those are truly happy who have the grace to rid themselves of temptation to distractions and turn to God by sincere contrition. Those, too, are happy who avoid the things that only give them a troubled conscience. Fight hard against your sins; bad habits are overcome by good habits. Do not make excuses that others hinder you; for if you let them alone, they will let you alone to do what you must.k Do not mind other people's business and do not become involved in the affairs of great persons. keep an eye on your own self and reprove yourself rather than your friends. Do not be upset if you are not in the favour of the worldly-minded; but rather be sorry that your behaviour is not that of a devout servant of God.

It is far better for a person to lack consolations in this life, particularly those of the flesh. If we receive little or no spiritual consolations it is our own fault (though sometimes the lack of them is a test of our faith); for we do not have true compunction of heart, nor do we refrain altogether from seeking consolations from without.

Realize that you are unworthy of supernatural consolations, but instead deserve tribulation. The comforts of the world are distasteful to those who have perfect contrition for their sins. Good people always find enough reason to have sorrow and to weep; for whether they look at themselves or think about their neighbour, they realize that no one lives in the world free from affliction; and the more thoroughly they look into thier own hearts, the deeper will be their sorrow. But the cause for real grief and contrition is the remembrance of our sins, in which we are so enmeshed that we can hardly think about spiritual matters.

If you would think more often about death than of a long life, you would be more eager to amend your life. If you thought seriously about the pains of hell or purgatory, you would gladly endure pain and labour, and no hardship would seem too much for you. But since these things do not penetrate the heart and wee still love the false pleasures of this world, we tend to be cold and indifferent.

It is the weakness of the spirit that often makes our wretched bodies complain for the slightest reason. Therefore, humbly pray to God, that in His merciful goodness He will give you the spirit of penance, and in hte words of the Prophet say to Him: Feed me, O Lord, "with the bread of tears" and give me "tears to drink beyoud measure" (Ps 80:6).

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Sanctus II - Libera

I found a lovely, deeply spiritually resounding hymn to our Lord sang my Libera. I was watching a youtube video with pictures of the incorrupt bodies of the saints, and this song, Sanctus II by the boy group Libera, I fell in love with, I decided to put it as my blog's song. Hope you all enjoy.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Blessing Of Friendship

The Lord bestowed a blessing on me yesterday. The blessing of rekindling a long lost friendship. A friend whom I haven't seen in nine years popped up in a friend request on facebook. Since the last day I saw him in primary school, I was always grieved at his departing from Trinidad, knowing that I may never see him, hear him and socialize with him again in all my life. The only knowledge he left with us was that he was going to live in Canada. As a child, that hit hard. He was one of those I had liked to play with plenty.

Leaving all my childhood friends was hard enough, but knowing that you may never be able to see somebody again was ever more harder for me to accept. Yesterday, god in his infinite mercy showed a QUITE unexpected blessing which I can't thank him enough for. All I could have said was OH MY GOD! I did that for quite some time in disbelief and total shock and awe. I thank god with ALL my heart. Truly there is a god when these sort of things happen.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Christ's Victory Over Hell

Some time ago, I found this great site for people who wanted to venture and divulge deeper into The mystery of Christ's victory over Satan on the Cross, and speaks about the Seven Last Words of our Lord. It is from the book that I am reading which I so frequently speak about because of its in dept knowledge of the mysteries of God and the hidden lives of Jesus and Mary - The Mystical City of God by Venerable Mary of Agreda Spain

For all those who love The Crucified Christ and His Sorrowful Mother, and Honour his holy wounds and her inexpressible sorrows, I share with you this wonderful book and these passages for your encouragement of Faith, Hope and Love.

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Mary's Year - 2008

"Jesus said to me (Valentina Papagna) while I was reciting the chaplet of Divine Mercy. "Fear not, My children for what you hear or read or see which causes confusion. Have hope only in Me. I want to tell you that the next year is a very special year. It will be dedicated to My beloved and Holy Mother, and many graces will be given to the world. Pray, My children, for all this to happen. This is how you ask; -

' Dearest and loving Father, may we pray to You through Your loving Son Jesus and His Holy Mother for all Her children, that many graces will come through Her intercession. We ask You and thank You through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen' "

This was the message given to the world on 28th November 2007 by my favorite living visionary, Valentina Papagna of Sydney Australia. Pray many rosaries this year was the request so as to defeat evil works. Here is the visionary's website. I encourage all to listen to the words of our lord in our day and heed his call for love and service through prayer and good works for the world.